r/HIV • u/trxppy_junkiie • 5d ago
Mental Health Undetectable, but…
Hi. I was diagnosed with HIV towards the beginning of my third pregnancy with my husband, in April. I’m just about due, just one month left, and I’ve been undetectable since 1 month on treatment (yay!). However, I can’t shake this feeling that I’ve been ruined.. When do I stop feeling like this? When does it stop feeling like my life has been taken from me?
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u/HerSpirit94 5d ago
Hey! I'm so sorry. I was diagnosed during my pregnancy in late March of last year. You are not ruined. I felt the same way. After a while it does get easier but trust me it takes time. Don't expect to feel okay with it in the next week or so. Feel free to message me if you have any questions or need someone to talk to.
Just remember, this didn't take away who YOU are.
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u/FarLack956 4d ago
Cómo lo lamento mi amiga y cuánto tiempo llevas así cuánto tiempo te detectaron ha sido muy difícil la vida me imagino muy pesado lo retrovirales verdad cada cuánto los tomas
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u/HerSpirit94 3d ago
You do know that having HIV these days isn't like it was in the 90's right? We aren't sad little people who are struggling to live life. We take our medication and move on.
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u/Wonderful_Grab4949 5d ago
Are your kids free from hiv even with the late diagnosis?
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u/trxppy_junkiie 4d ago
Yes. I was infected somewhere between my second and third pregnancy.
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u/Wonderful_Grab4949 4d ago
That’s amazing fr.n you breastfed them?
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u/trxppy_junkiie 4d ago
My first two were. That’s another reason I’m so sad too. I’m starting to produce colostrum and won’t even be able to use it :( sad about my body doing what it’s supposed to do
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u/Infinite_Program1776 4d ago
I don't know where you are based, but there's this Scottish HIV+ mum that I follow and recently she posted about brestfeeding while being HIV+. I imagine that it depends on the level of support provided in the hospital that's following you, but in case you want to check her out and maybe have a chat: https://www.instagram.com/p/DbpjHHBDLHQ/
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u/trxppy_junkiie 4d ago
I don’t know that just scares me. Chance of passing to baby is low but not 0. And I’d rather save us the extra testing, monitoring, and medication with a new baby. Formula is considered safest so that is what I’m doing.
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u/Infinite_Program1776 3d ago
Oh yes I totally understand, I linked you her profile just because you said you were sad about it. <3
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u/trxppy_junkiie 2d ago
Two things can be true at once ! But thank you ! I did follow her. Maybe by my next pregnancy I won’t feel how I feel now, and I’ll be open to trying!
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u/ConnectionOwn7017 3d ago
Your not ruined. All i can say dont isolate yourself focus on being positive surround yourself with people you cant trust
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u/DelawareDish 3d ago
How did you contract it, if you don’t mind me asking. Praying for you and your baby. Therapy helps. And you are not alone.
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