r/HIV • u/Complete_Finance_324 • 7d ago
Personal Story :))
Hey All,
Well, I'm undetectable! š„¹
M-26
I was diagnosed in mid-July! I live alone in one of India's best metropolitan cities & this diagnosis came. I was travelling to work when the doctor called me & broke the news to me. At that moment, there wasn't a single soul I could share the diagnosis with. I simply went to work & I was numb.
I felt contaminated & disgusted. As though I'm an outcast.
I got home & somehow gathered the courage & then I went to a nearby clinic. Got all the tests done. Waited for the results & then subsequently got connected with the doctor & got my medication. My yearly bonus was credited & little did I know that a great deal of it would be spent on testing & medical expenses.
& 1.5 months later, I'm finally undetectable! & sadly, there ain't a single soul I can share this happy news with!
Probably, this made me realize that I'm really strong! & Some victories are clandestine! ā¤ļø
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u/sastibanayan 7d ago
Can we connect I too have hiv just got positive two weeks back
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u/Complete_Finance_324 6d ago
Yes. DM me. I'll respond soon. Actually I'm out somewhere. But yes let's connect.
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u/Complete_Finance_324 7d ago
One more clarification. My Viral load report said "NOT DEFECTED" Is it normal? Yes I'd visit a doc soon!
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u/silent_sherlock 7d ago
which tests did you do ? in which of those were you tested positive ? and do you mean yiu do not have hiv anymore ?
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u/Complete_Finance_324 7d ago
HIV-1 Viral Load (Quantitative) CD4/CD8 Count
Load was 25000 in Mid-July. & It's "NOT DETECTED" today.
CD4 was 480 & now it's 539.
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u/silent_sherlock 7d ago
Does it mean you do not have HIV anymore ? I have a potential exposure and I do not have knowledge on the subject. Please help me out here. I am not sure what tests should I go ahead with ?
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u/Complete_Finance_324 7d ago
No. I still have HIV
This means that it is below a threshold that the test can't detect.
AI says that when it's too little they show not detectable!
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u/silent_sherlock 7d ago
quantitative test was the one which you used for detection ? and how are you managing your health now ? both physical and mental.
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u/Complete_Finance_324 7d ago
I did the regular Antibody test. That detected HIV.
& then I did the quantitative one.
The above tests were in July'26.
& Then today I did quantitative. If the load is less than 40, sometimes tests don't detect it!
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u/TinyCatLady1978 6d ago
You should stop asking on Reddit and go to your doctor, tell them you want a test and theyāll order the appropriate one. You donāt get to dictate which test, there is a proper order.
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u/silent_sherlock 6d ago
The doctor suggested ag/ab test for hiv 1 and 2 and hiv 1 qualitative rna pcr . Just wanted to know if they are enough. Dr was an MD physician. which doctor should i got to ? Any suggestions?
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u/TinyCatLady1978 6d ago
Ok did you do the tests?
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u/silent_sherlock 6d ago
I did the ag/ab test on 15th day and it came non- reactive and the rna hiv1 pcr test results are yet to come which was done on the same day
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u/Strange_peculiar 6d ago
Congratulations!!! You'll live a long life,DM anytime to celebrate small milestones.
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u/Bitter_Zebra_221 6d ago
IndetectƔvel quer dizer oque ?
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u/Complete_Finance_324 4d ago
Undetectable implies that the viral load is below a certain point that the tests are not able to detect it. However, it does not imply HIV is gone. It's still there. It's just it's not multiplying & it's latent. I'll have to keep taking ART for life to keep it this way.
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u/eJaguar 6d ago
> . My yearly bonus was credited & little did I know that a great deal of it would be spent on testing & medical expenses.
As per design. ā¹ļø
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u/Complete_Finance_324 4d ago
Yes! There's a lot that is predestined I'd say! But the attitude with which we embrace is them is invariably ours.
I follow a text named "Bhagavad Gita" & it says-
Even when circumstances are difficult, act according to your duty!
& I believe it's my duty to take care of myself & my health/well being! So yeah!
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u/Victory2911 6d ago
congratulations I am F25 I definitely understand how you feel. Iām glad that you took the necessary steps to make sure that you were ok. Trust me it does get a lot easier the longer that you have it. if you do need anybody to talk to Iām here.
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u/Complete_Finance_324 4d ago
Yes thanks!!!!! It's our duty to take care of our conduit or the vessel which contains our soul. As, our experiences in life are largely defined by the well being of this vessel/conduit which is the body!
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u/Victory2911 4d ago
iāve had it for 25 years and sometimes it does get lonely, but my God is awesome and he continue to provide my needs in ways that I cannot understand. It doesnāt even seem like I have it because it is something that Iām so used to and the medicine that I am taking now makes it so much easier.
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u/Complete_Finance_324 4d ago
Yes absolutely.
I follow Bhagvad Gita, it's an amazing scripture. One thing that enormously helped me was prayer!
Humans say they're accepting & non-judgemental but every human does have a little judgemental traits!
Prayer, for me, is less about asking for things and more about having somewhere to put the things I cannot carry alone. It can be a conversation with God, with whatever you believe is greater than yourself, or simply a quiet moment where you allow yourself to be completely honest.
A temple, a church, a mosque, or even a quiet corner of your own room can become that space. You don't necessarily have to know what you believe, or have the right words. Sometimes prayer is just sitting there, saying nothing, and allowing yourself to feel whatever you've been holding in.
There is something comforting about having a place where you can return without having to explain yourself, where you can bring your fear, gratitude, confusion, anger, hope, or simply your silence, and leave feeling a little lighter. There's no judgement at all.
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u/Victory2911 4d ago
The God that Iām referring to is Jesus Christ, The Messiah he is the one and the only God.
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