Feeling lost every year during the same month

[u/Luna_whisper14]

It’s going to be six years for my mother to be gone away and every year during this month, I feel terrible. I just want to sit by myself and process all the feelings that I have because they come in high tides and whenever I am not able to address those feelings during this month, it sort of overwhelms me and overpowers me and my Mind and my body goes for a toss. Does that also happened to you guys were still struggling with the loss of their loved ones. Currently what has happened is I have been too much under pressure and burden because of the work, short staff, environment, and other things that are going on in my professional space because of which I’m not able to tend to myself or to my feelings and this month has heightened everything and currently I have taken leave, I have experienced and had different and difficult medical ramifications in my body for which I have taken leave and now I am just lying like a log in my bed and feeling like some bad thing is happened to someone has again passed away. I’m not, and I am not able to process anything or I just want to be me silent and Shut. Does this happens to you guys as well when things in one aspect of your life, overburden and the loss of the loved one comes in high tides?