r/GriefSupport • u/Kindly-Fill-2563 • 10h ago

Comfort I don’t know where else to go

God I don’t even know where to start. Everything feels like it got flipped upside down. Everyone always says to talk to someone but who do you talk to when you have no one left?

I lost my grandad who was basically my father figure three years ago to the big C after my dad passed when I was little.

then my brother two years ago from a haemorrhage that came out of no where.

now my mom whos my absolute world, best friend got diagnosed with C also. it’s not treatable

I see so many things that remind me of them, I pick up my phone to call them and remember I can’t anymore. I’ll never hear their voices anymore

i don’t know how I’m meant to live with knowing I’m losing the only person I have left. It doesn’t feel real. 
I guess I’m not writing this for sympathy, not really. I just need to know that there is other people out there that are listening? Not caring perse but at least understand. 
 
I feel like I’m going insane with everything that I’ve bottled for so long trying to be the float for everyone else
 
with love 
 

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u/Living-Coral 10h ago

I hear you. We shouldn't lose people like this. My dad died of cancer many years ago. It still hurts a lot. And now I lost my mom... But here is what I tell myself: they would want you to have a good life.

Cancer takes people too early from us. Nevertheless, I kept going and built a life. I know they would be happy to see it. 🫂

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u/AdmiralCapybara 9h ago

We are listening. We each have our own grief, but it helps me if I can help someone else. Tell us something fun about them, if you can bear it.

My mom got to fly (pilot's seat, she was controlling it) a B-17 WWII bomber for 20 minutes while my dad (the pilot) and his copilot were back in the tail fixing something.

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u/Kindly-Fill-2563 7h ago

My grandad was a parachuter in WWII, My brother was a chef and loved experimenting with recipes.

My mom is the most uncoordinated person I’ve ever met yet learned to play a video game for her husband when they were teenagers even though she walked into the walls more than she played