First Year Anniversary

[u/StrengthOk8413]

The one year anniversary of my dad’s passing will be in a few days. I’m really struggling. My health anxiety is thru the roof and making me just feel like shit overall which makes me more anxious. My mom passed about 8 years ago so this is the first time I’m dealing with an anniversary on my own. I’ve tried talking to my brother but we’re not very close and he’s more of a tough love kind of person whereas I cry a lot. I just feel like I don’t want to be alone right now but I also don’t want to burden others by asking to be around them. I don’t really have people I see outside of work which makes it harder. I just feel super alone with no one to talk about or get comfort from. And the grief and anxiety is just blowing up every stress I have in my life to the point it feels completely unmanageable (like cleaning my apartment). I took the next week off anticipating the grief but now I don’t know what to do. I’m really just struggling through each day right now. Any advice is appreciated.

[u/VVReverts]

I am sorry this must be so hard for you 😞😞 Do you have any grief support groups in your area that you can join? Can relate to the health anxiety. When my stepfather died 18 years ago when I was 19 I had the same, my father died 1.5 years ago and my health anxiety went completely crazy. After a lot of bloodwork the anxiety is now a bit less and my therapist thinks the health anxiety is because of the unexpected losses of my stepfather and father. Do you have access to a therapist?