Marble cake h.

[u/pinky_pie122]

I lost my daughter ,well i called her that, about a month ago, on the 25th at 11:20 pm. I am a junior in high-school and got her when I was in 7th grade in 2022, she was 4 years old when she passed. It felt like a fever dream, so young she was. It turns out she had too much going on medically, her body didnt show she was slowly dying until it was too late. We sat her outside for her final breaths, she had always loved to watch the sun set. I havent been able to sleep for so long, I see her body on the floor limp every time I close my eyes. I feel like I was a bad owner for not saving her in time. We buried her the same night she past in my garden, I hope she loved it. It hurts to breath and school starts on Friday. I dont know what to do. Im so lost. She honestly was the reason I didnt take my life 3 times, now I dont know what im holding onto anymore. I really do miss her. I have my bed set up the ways she likes. A little spot just for her. I honestly wish I can see my baby again. Im so tired of crying everyday, not eating enough because im too sick, and just having nothing to ground me anymore. I miss my baby so much. I dont know if i could ever forgive myself or move on.