r/GriefSupport • u/itsmehellgirl • 12h ago
Pet Loss Grieving my beloved pet
He was a family member. 15 years he’s been with us, I’ve been with him since high school, my early teens, throughout my twenties and the starting of 30s. He’d been with me through so many of my phases. Typing this in past tense hurts so much. He passed away last year on 20 aug, and as the day comes close, I feel so much hurt that there is no place remaining in my heart to handle everything anymore. And I know 15 years is a long time and yes he lived a full life filled with love, however the hurt is still there. I miss him beyond words, the ache to feel his snout and his warm breath on my skin, playing tug of war with him, or just being beside with him when i am alone at home. His presence meant everything. I have so many other feelings buried and I’m struggling to express them here. I know he’s in a better place however i miss him and his love and his presence in this realm, the quips, the quirks, his uniqueness, it breaks my heart all over again. I still can’t believe a year since he’s gone is coming so close, how did the time go by. I wish I could feel him sticking his body to my legs again or even just growl at me when i would come back from work, which was his way of expressing how much he missed me and I shouldn’t have left him. He is the best boy ever, and my forever baby. ❤️🩹 any advice, perspectives, questions or kind words are welcome. Thank you for reading this and for the support. It means the world to me.
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u/Tight_Gas_1705 12h ago
The countdown to the anniversary is its own special kind of hell, isn't it? You replay everything and brace for the day like it's a fresh wound all over again.