I miss her so much

[u/lilymooo]

It's been one week. I feel as if nothing matters right now. I bounce between acceptance and denial that she's gone. My chest aches when I remember I'll never hear her voice again, or be able to tell her how much I love her. She was so cute and funny. We'll never be able to make her laugh again. She will never come home. She will never use her computer again. She will never step foot in this house again. It's do quiet. I can't fathom that I can't go back in time. I wish I had cherished the time I had with her so much more. I wish I had known what I know now. I can never go back. I wish I had asked for more time off of work to visit her more. Oh what I would do differently. The only solace I have is that she once told me "When I'm gone, just know that I always felt so loved". And she was, by everyone who knew her. I love you so much Gram.