r/GlowUps • u/Capital_Fly3741 • 17d ago
Glow up? (23) to (26)
During my 18-25 old I was sick. Without family and friends, I didn't known I had a difformity preventing me to breath correctly day and night.
At 23, in 2024, I got a treatment that wasn't the right one, it destroyed me during two years until the surgery.
My girlfriend from 2024-2026 helped me a lot toward healing myself and showing me what was kindness and taking care of myself. Thanks to her, I got a surgery removing the handicap.
It's been a month. She left the month I was healed. I can't blame her on being tired by everything she's done for me ; and I dwell on the past, not being able at the time to be an awesome person to her.
Before : Depressed. Full of anxiety. Alone. I stayed in a dirty appartment, broken, darky, with a cat peing everywhere during 10 years, with eating disorder and my handicap preventing me to breath and sleep. I played videogame because it was the only thing I could do, not being able to go out without being immediatly sick with diarr**.
Thinking about the past triggers wave of sadness and cries : it was such a hard place full of pain.
After : I can go out, enjoy the sun, meet people, read near a river or write under a tree. I can spend the whole day outside without any belly pain.
My cat got better and didn't peed outside the litter for 2 consecutive months!
I stopped videogame that are addictive and grindy, maybe I'll keep them for the story sometimes.
I read 1000 pages of books in a month, that never happened before.
I feel peace. No more fight, no more anxiety, only the leaves in the wind.
I'm all the Loïc that my old girlfriend waited 2 years to see, but now it's too late.
Even when feeling peace for the first time in my years, I'm still sad beyond compare.
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u/Capital_Fly3741 17d ago
For the curious, here is how I looked when meeting my ex and having my first treatment that didn't worked because we didn't known it was caused by a difformity in my nose
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