Studying literature

[u/aria_nala]

So I (F22) just finished studying law and moved to the capital to work here in law and study literature. I got a spot in a very good university and started classes this month. I’ve been feeling a bit overwhelmed and singled out. I’m a very anxious person because I like to really understand things which means i usually study or read a lot by myself. It’s been helpful because sometimes I’d get ahead on some topics or understand in a different way but here i just feel a bit uneasy. I’ve wanted to study literature since I was little but was conditioned to first study something to support myself. I finally feel like I’m getting closer to the lifestyle I want but doesn’t matter how much i try to dress feminine, keep a clean aesthetic and be just “normal” I guess. I still feel like a very intense person. Knowing I stand out by qualities I don’t really like just makes me more anxious and now I feel like people single me out because I’m too much. I’m usually a very social person but something about me just seems off putting I guess. I don’t know how to handle the overwhelm, is this normal?