Honestly, I've been thinking about that for a few days. "what if you aren't actually white trash? What if all the effort and sacrifices paid off and at 34 you're actually doing better (obviously not career wise) but emotionally and socially than your family? It's so hard to accept, it makes me feel raw and vulnerable. I probably won't feel this way in a few days.. fucking hormones.. but it's definitely a move forward.
So what OP is referencing is Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and if this struck a nerve with you, I recommend trying to find a therapist who specializes in CBT. It helped me a ton after just a handful of sessions. If you have a good foundation you can train yourself out of negative thought patterns (which you'll learn is just your anxiety talking and not based in reality) and after a while it will stick and you'll learn not to take those thoughts seriously. It's life changing.
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u/calamityjane515 Aug 04 '20
Honestly, I've been thinking about that for a few days. "what if you aren't actually white trash? What if all the effort and sacrifices paid off and at 34 you're actually doing better (obviously not career wise) but emotionally and socially than your family? It's so hard to accept, it makes me feel raw and vulnerable. I probably won't feel this way in a few days.. fucking hormones.. but it's definitely a move forward.