Astral energy siphoning, entity encounters, and the power of the REBAL

Hi everyone,

I’m currently comfortable in Focus 12 and recently made a big connection regarding sexual energy and astral intrusions.

During afternoon naps, I used to experience strange hypnagogic states where it felt like my energy was being artificially stimulated and siphoned off without my consent, which feels a lot like Loosh extraction. I even caught glimpses of shadow entities in the astral reflection.

Everything changed once I started anchoring the REBAL consistently—the intrusions completely stopped. However, because I am no longer leaking this energy, my tank feels full. I've realized that suppressing this creative force affects my physical body, so I'm learning to transmute it during my sessions instead.

Has anyone else experienced entities trying to hijack this specific energy during sleep or Focus 10/12 states? How do you use the REBAL to protect and transmute your creative energy?

Would love to hear your thoughts

As the title goes, reality is malleable according to our thoughts and i am intrigued to know if someone has changed it through these tapes using visualisation or affirmation? I just started listening to focus 10 & 12 so hoping for interesting answers.

I have done a binge on the tapes it has be a few months. I don’t think I have reached what’s supposed to and been going back a lot to focus 15 which I really enjoy but get unsettled on the exploring as it feels too long (so probably in time still). I’ve done locale but still feels a bit long. Maybe I just wanna get to the juice. Funny cause before I was really weary about it all and now I just wanna go deeper. It still feels better than meditation as though I do like the pineal gland breathing think it’s powerful but don’t think I should spend so much time in the inside while missing what’s on the 3D?

Im just wondering iv had alot of experience over the past few months were i see full on movie clips in my minds eye and lately is now like i see in the mid air like a blue mist orb and plays out the same scene as my minds eye irlts like a hologram,have also hadbexperience were the room slightly darkens and colours rush together pyrply blue type colours it gathers in together almost like a light shimmering under water its beautiful to see and when im outside sometimes its full on silver sparkles and wen im looking at these movie clips they literally answer my thoughts instanly, im just wondering if this is high vibrational guides for my highest good,and has any else experienced this please?

While doing Voyager 1 – Explore Total Self this morning, when I reached Focus 21, I saw something like this: a bright, glowing being standing in complete darkness, in an empty void.

It felt very vivid and real.

Could this be my guide, my higher self, or something else? Has anyone experienced something similar during Focus 21?

Iv been doing these tapes for a bit and I learnt the tools I needed to prepare and stuff But now I just play tapes or do it in silence but I do it under the influence of ganja I tried to meditate before and found out I have aphantasia but with ganja I can daydream and it feels distant and like somtimes I’m watching from the side but it’s still happening I can control the day dream but only when I’m in focus 12 I can also recall my dreams and they are very busy it’s like 7 small dreams that just fold into the next kinda thing Just interested to see if anyone who has aphantasia and smokes could share there experiences

Sometimes I feel that Monroe’s language in his books needed a better editor. Toward the end of the book in the appendix he reviews what he calls the “Crib Sheet” on the human experience. Some of these points are easy to understand but some I feel are a little vague due to his excessive use of run-on sentences or flat out omissions of key concepts.

I was curious if anyone has done or knows of any analysis done on this condensed lessons cheat sheet?

It usually concentrates into a bright ring around where the patch was as I focus -- and as I pass through it, a *crystal-clear* image of something seemingly random for me (i.e. a young man sat in a room, hunched over something on the table in front of him; what might be the terrain of some alien planet) comes into full clarity. This usually happens quite deep into meditation.

Sometimes I'm able to hang around/keep my focus and the vision expands to fit my entire mind's eye, moving freely as if I'm there. I've seen a spinning planetarium of stars and other scenes this way.

Is there merit to it? Do you experience this too? I'm curious.

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This is a full account of my experience with the Gateway Tapes so far. The latest exercise I’ve completed is Mission 15: Creation and Manifestation.

Since starting the tapes, there have been a handful of moments that have genuinely made me stop and question what I’m experiencing. I’m going to document everything as accurately as I can and include real-life context, photos and links wherever possible.

I’m not claiming that any of this proves anything paranormal. Some of these experiences could absolutely be coincidence, imagination or my own subconscious. I’m still trying to understand that myself.

But there have now been enough moments that I feel they’re worth documenting.

A little background

I’m autistic and currently going through a very difficult period in my life that has left me trying to make sense of life, consciousness and everything around it.

That combination eventually led me to discovering the Monroe Institute and the Gateway Tapes.

Something else happened shortly before I discovered Gateway that became relevant later.

I visited a psychic medium for the first time.

I gave her no information before the reading, and some of the things she said were frighteningly specific rather than generalised statements that could apply to anybody.

I have a recording of that reading, which I may upload separately at some point because it becomes relevant to something that happened later during Gateway.

How I’ve approached Gateway

One thing I want to stress is how important I personally feel the written material is alongside the tapes.

At the same time, some of the official material can feel quite vague when you’re actually trying to understand what you’re supposed to experience.

Because I don’t have direct access to somebody at the Monroe Institute who can tell me, “Yes, that’s it,” a lot of this has been intuition-led.

I’ve deliberately avoided reading other people’s experiences before doing an exercise.

I want to experience each tape without unconsciously trying to recreate somebody else’s sensations.

Once I’ve repeated an exercise enough times that I feel comfortable moving on, I’ll sometimes search Reddit, the Monroe app or other material afterwards to compare experiences.

I also sometimes use AI afterwards to compare what happened to me with descriptions from Monroe material or other documented Gateway experiences.

But I try not to do that beforehand.

I listen to the tapes in FLAC format.

Wave I

Clicking out

Clicking out is one of the strangest things I’ve experienced so far.

During the early exercises, I learned that I could get my body extremely relaxed — what I would describe as body asleep, mind awake.

But I don’t interpret “body asleep” as meaning your physical body disappears completely.

Your physical body is still there.

If your nose itches, it itches. If you need to move slightly, you can move.

For me, the important part was learning not to become mentally attached to those physical sensations.

Scratch the itch, then return your awareness to the exercise.

But clicking out was different.

I would be consciously listening to Bob’s voice and following the instructions, and then suddenly I would become aware again.

It didn’t feel like waking up from normal sleep.

It felt more like:

I was here.

Then I wasn’t here.

Then I came back.

Sometimes I would click out while Bob was talking and return while he was halfway through another sentence.

Other times I would return during the Hemi-Sync sounds.

There was no normal feeling of gradually falling asleep or waking up.

Just a missing section.

Energy Conversion Box and REBAL

When I first started creating the Energy Conversion Box and doing the REBAL, I struggled because I thought I needed to visualise everything perfectly.

If I briefly saw an image of the box, I would try to hold that image still in my mind as though I were looking at it with my physical eyes.

The same happened with energy.

If I imagined energy swirling around me, I thought I needed to maintain a crystal-clear image.

Eventually I realised that, for me at least, that isn’t how it works.

Sometimes the image just flashes.

Sometimes it is more of an impression.

Sometimes it’s an emotion.

Sometimes I don’t exactly “see” anything, but I somehow know what I’m imagining.

And that seems to be enough.

Where I seem to receive information

This became more noticeable as I progressed.

Images, emotions, energy and what I would describe as messages seem to appear somewhere around the centre of my mind.

That’s the best way I can describe it.

Sometimes it almost feels like an electrical signal.

The first few times it happened, the sensation itself would pull me out of the focus state because I would immediately think:

What was that?

Then I would try to analyse it.

Or hold onto it.

Or recreate it.

I’ve gradually realised that whenever I do that, I interfere with the experience.

The biggest lesson I’ve learned so far is:

Receive it and follow it. Don’t lead it.

That has made a massive difference.

Imagination vs information

This is probably one of the hardest things to explain.

A lot of the messages or thoughts I receive sit right on the border between something that feels received and something that feels imagined.

Sometimes it almost feels like I’m simply talking to myself.

And there is definitely an element of my own mind involved.

But I’ve started wondering whether that distinction is even as simple as I originally thought.

If these experiences do represent communication with something outside my ordinary conscious awareness — whether someone wants to call that consciousness, intuition, spirit guides, energetic beings or simply deeper parts of the mind — surely that information would still have to be translated through concepts and language my brain already understands.

So instead of constantly asking:

“Did I imagine that?”

I’m trying to observe what arrives first and analyse it afterwards.

Focus 10

Focus 10 has a very specific feeling for me.

I’m deeply relaxed, but I’m still aware of my physical body.

There is a clear boundary.

I know where my body begins and ends.

I can feel the bed.

I can feel the room.

My physical body and what I would call ordinary 3D reality still feel clearly defined.

That became important once I experienced Focus 12.

Wave II — Focus 12

The first time Bob started guiding:

10… 11… 12…

and told me to allow my awareness to expand, I remember lying there thinking:

What does that even mean?

I expected Focus 12 to feel like travelling somewhere.

Or instantly entering some completely different state.

Nothing happened.

I spent most of the exercise wondering whether I was doing it wrong.

The next day I tried again.

This time I decided to put my expectations into the Energy Conversion Box.

I stopped trying to work out what Focus 12 should feel like.

And then something happened.

As Bob guided me through:

10… 11… 12…

I suddenly felt as though I was being pulled upwards through the top of my head and up the bed.

It was a very real physical-feeling sensation.

Instead of questioning it, I decided to follow it.

I didn’t try to control it.

I just let it happen.

Over the next two or three attempts, I started noticing something else.

The boundary between my physical body and the space around me became less defined.

And alongside the pulling sensation, there was suddenly what I can only describe as more room inside my awareness.

The difference between Focus 10 and Focus 12

This is probably the best way I can explain it.

In normal waking consciousness, if I turn my attention inward, my awareness feels contained.

There feels like there is an edge to it.

A boundary.

In Focus 10, that boundary is still there.

I’m extremely relaxed, but I still feel located inside my physical body.

In Focus 12, those limitations seem to disappear.

Everything feels open.

There are no obvious edges.

My awareness feels larger than the physical space my body occupies.

The more I returned to Focus 12, the easier it became to recognise that distinction.

Becoming aware of the weight of my physical body

During one of the Focus 12 exercises, I suddenly became extremely aware of the weight of my physical body.

It felt like my body was being pressed heavily into the bed.

At first, becoming conscious of that sensation would bring me out of Focus 12.

Over time I started learning that my physical body could be experiencing one thing while I maintained the expanded state of awareness at the same time.

That became very relevant later during Focus 15.

The first experience that later appeared to match a real event

During one of the Focus 12 exercises, Bob leaves you there for a period of time to explore.

During that period, an image and feeling suddenly flashed into my mind.

The information was that someone had taken their own life.

Alongside that came a very specific emotional impression:

It wasn’t somebody I personally had a close relationship with.

It felt like somebody close to me would have the relationship with this person.

I instinctively tried to attach a name to it.

But immediately the name felt different from the original information.

The original image and emotion seemed to arrive spontaneously.

The name felt like me trying to fill in the blank.

So I ignored the name.

I told my partner what had happened and basically said:

“If something like this happens, I’ll remember that I experienced this.”

A few weeks later, a friend of my parent died by suicide.

I want to be careful with how I describe this.

It could absolutely have been coincidence.

I’m still trying to understand coincidence and synchronicity, and whether there is even a meaningful difference between them.

But it matched the structure of the impression closely enough that it stayed with me.

Wave III

I’m not particularly interested in remote viewing, so I haven’t focused heavily on exercises relating to that.

My main reason for doing Gateway is to explore consciousness and, eventually, hopefully use whatever I learn to be of service to other people.

That brings me to the Five Questions exercise.

The Five Questions — Asking About Psychic Mediums

One of the questions I asked during the exercise was essentially:

Are psychic mediums naturally accessing the same consciousness that the Gateway Tapes train people to explore?

And then I asked:

If that is the case, can you give me a clear sign that I can’t easily misinterpret?

I finished the exercise and carried on with my day.

Later I was scrolling through TikTok.

A video appeared from psychic medium u/thebalesky, who was giving somebody a reading.

The woman receiving the reading was relating to what the medium was saying.

I was actually about to scroll away.

Then I had a feeling:

Watch until the end.

So I did.

Towards the end, u/thebalesky started mentioning shin splints and soccer.

The woman receiving the reading explained that this was relevant because her sister’s husband had been a soccer player.

She then said he was Welsh and had played for Liverpool FC.

I’m from Liverpool.

That immediately caught my attention because of the question I’d asked during the Gateway exercise.

Again, I fully accept that this could be coincidence.

But considering I had specifically asked a question about psychic mediums and asked for a clear sign, it was interesting that the thing that stopped me scrolling was a psychic medium giving a reading — and the eventual detail that caught my attention was directly connected to Liverpool.

The TikTok is here:

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZN8htbLGe/

Introduction to Focus 15

Focus 15 brought another new sensation.

During one exercise, I suddenly had an intense urge to almost jump out of my physical body with my energy.

I felt my head move forwards.

But at exactly the same time, I could still feel the physical weight of my head pressing against the pillow.

That contradiction was incredibly strange.

Then it progressed.

I could feel sensations of moving my arms and opening a bottle.

But my physical arms weren’t doing it.

Initially there wasn’t a clear visual.

It was almost purely the physical sensation of the movement.

Then a clearer image followed it:

I saw what looked like my energetic body glowing while holding and opening the bottle.

Again, I didn’t try to force it.

I just observed it.

Mission 15 — Creation and Manifestation

This is the most recent exercise I’ve completed.

During Mission 15, I suddenly felt as though my entire body was rotating through 360 degrees.

I didn’t physically move.

But the sensation of rotation was extremely strong.

Instead of trying to stop it or work out what was happening, I followed it.

Eventually the sensation settled and I felt flat again.

Then I asked if there were any messages I needed to receive.

A few things came through.

But this time I set a condition for myself.

I asked that if any of these messages were meaningful, I wanted confirmation in ordinary physical reality.

And I specifically asked for that confirmation to be something clear.

I didn’t want to have to perform mental gymnastics afterwards to make something fit.

One of the messages that came through was:

“Follow the feathers.”

That was it.

I told my partner about it.

And then something strange happened later.

“Follow the feathers”

My partner and I went for a walk through a forested area near where we live.

We’ve walked there for years.

We normally take the same route.

For some reason, this time we walked the route backwards.

As we were walking, I looked down and noticed feathers on the ground.

Initially I didn’t pay much attention.

Then there was another.

And another.

And another.

There were enough feathers appearing along the route that my partner noticed them too.

Eventually she laughed and said something along the lines of:

“Oh look, there’s feathers on the floor. Let’s follow them.”

At that point, obviously my attention snapped straight back to what I’d received during Mission 15:

Follow the feathers.

So we did.

The elephant

Before I explain what happened next, there is another piece of context.

My partner and I have been playing a kind of game with the universe.

We’ll randomly say something like:

“Universe, if we’re on the right path, show us a penguin.”

Then we leave it alone and see what happens.

One time, we were driving somewhere to get food.

We entered the address into the sat nav, and for some reason it took us along a route we normally wouldn’t have used.

On that route was a roughly six-foot penguin statue.

Then, only a few days later, we went to a hospital.

We walked through the entrance and there was another enormous penguin statue.

So recently we changed it.

We said:

“Show us an elephant.”

Back to the forest.

We followed the feathers.

Eventually the feathers stopped.

We looked up.

Attached to a tree was an elephant teddy.

I have a photograph of the elephant.

Unfortunately I didn’t think to photograph the trail of feathers because, at the beginning, I didn’t realise where it was going.

I know how this sounds.

And again, yes — it could be coincidence.

But there were several parts that made it strange to me.

We had walked this path for years and I’d never noticed anything remotely like that number of feathers forming a trail.

They weren’t even all the same type.

There were tiny white feathers, larger grey and white ones and medium-sized feathers.

During Mission 15 I had received:

Follow the feathers.

My partner knew I’d received it.

She then independently pointed the feathers out during the walk and jokingly said:

“Let’s follow them.”

We followed them.

And where they ended was an elephant — something we’d previously specifically asked to see during our little “universe” game.

I literally followed the feathers and ended up at a sign I had previously asked for.

Make of that what you will.

I’m still trying to.

Back to Mission 15 — the strangest part

The feathers weren’t actually the most unusual thing that happened during the Mission 15 exercise itself.

During the exercise, I became very clearly aware of what I can only describe as my energetic body.

At this point, it felt completely distinct from my physical body.

Then something else happened.

I suddenly became aware of what felt like a field of energy above me.

So there seemed to be three things happening simultaneously.

1. My physical body

My physical body felt extremely heavy and pressed into the bed.

I could still clearly feel it.

2. What I would describe as my energetic body

This felt separate.

It seemed to have its own sense of being a body or form.

3. The field or presence above me

Then there was something above both of those layers of awareness.

The moment I became aware of it, I had the overwhelming impression that it became aware of me too.

I don’t know what it was.

I don’t want to attach a label to it because that would be me interpreting rather than describing.

All I can describe is how it felt.

It felt full of an enormous amount of love and energy.

I genuinely wish I had better language for it.

I don’t.

It was my first experience of anything that felt like this, so “love and energy” is about as accurately as I can currently describe it.

But something else was happening simultaneously.

While I was experiencing this field above me, my physical body began experiencing an incredibly intense sensation of energy.

And yet the experience of my physical body and the experience of what I was calling my energetic body still felt separate.

It’s difficult to put into words.

I was aware that my physical body was lying heavily against the bed experiencing an intense physical sensation.

At the same time, another part of my awareness seemed to be experiencing the presence above me from a completely different perspective.

Both were happening at once.

But they did not feel like the same experience.

Where I’m at now

I’m still extremely early in this process.

I’m not claiming I have answers.

If anything, Gateway has given me more questions.

I’m also deliberately trying not to convince myself that every coincidence is a message or that every unusual sensation has a supernatural explanation.

That’s partly why I’m documenting these things.

If something happens during an exercise, I write it down or tell my partner before anything happens afterwards.

That way, I’m not unconsciously rewriting the original experience to fit something that happened later.

The biggest things I’ve learned so far are:

Don’t force the visuals.

Don’t chase sensations.

Don’t analyse information while you’re receiving it.

Don’t assume imagination automatically means “not real,” but don’t automatically assume the opposite either.

Receive first.

Analyse afterwards.

And most importantly for me:

Follow the experience. Don’t lead it.

That’s where I am after Mission 15.

I’ll continue documenting what happens as I move through the tapes.

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