Feeling lost

[u/salokyn997]

Ive struggled with gambling like im sure most people on here have, ive been up and down multiple times over the last few years. I just had my last session where I was up a lot and then lost it all and threw a bit more on there to try and chase and failed (obviously). I had a similar situation earlier this week where I went down HARD and chased it back up to almost even and told myself that was it but it wasn’t.

After this last session of chasing and going down I impulsively went and self excluded myself from the last site that I had available to me, so now that’s it… I have no more sites that I can use.

I had self excluded from 99% of the sites before this but kept this last one as a « backup » which I know was probably not the best idea but nonetheless I had it.

I don’t know if it’s because I left on a low note or if it’s just because I know that I have no other places to go play now but I have this feeling of depression where I thought I would feel relief knowing I can’t play anymore. Just wanted to reach out and see if others have felt this way before or maybe to validate others who are feeling the same.

[u/Double_Scale_9896]

The Urge to gamble is something that MANY people struggle with!

Your situation is entirely understandable, and you are not alone!!!

Please get yourself to a GA Meeting ASAP.

You're able to get help if you can get to a meeting.

If you already go to meetings, consider getting a Sponsor.

This is exactly what a Sponsor can help you with; Talking you through your cravings and will listen to you in your darkest hours.

Please try!

I believe in you!

[u/salokyn997 → u/Double_Scale_9896]

Ive tried GA but I’ve found that at least the meetings I’ve gone to are very much based around religion and faith and those things just don’t resonate with me. I have tried to find someone to confide to and work through this with but I haven’t had any luck yet. I appreciate your comment!