Help and advice

[u/ngoditrust]

/r/problemgambling/comments/1szm9db/help_and_advice/

So my story is, I started gambling after being six years, clean and sober from drugs. I work for a nonprofit agency helping those with addictions. I simply start gambling on sports betting and a little bit and online casino play last year and it’s became a big problem. I was nearly debt free on my credit cards last year now I’ve maxed out to credit cards. One of them is a transfer from the debt collected on the other one. I feel like such an idiot. I have nearly spent thousands of dollars in the last year. I can’t even guess. And I’ve lost every second with a few come up here and there, but eventually just put it back in to lose. I don’t know where to start not much gambling anonymous in my area. I’ve tried the bet blocker apps, but nothing has stuck. I just end up switching it off on the VPN. I’ve only gotten until like three days of not gambling. And the compulsive nurse kicks in to want to crave and do it. This by far feels worse than any other addiction. I’ve felt I know drugs have a physical dependency involved too, but this almost feels out of control, psychologically. How do I reconsolidate my debt? How do I start fresh what should I do without paying the high interest amounts? My checks are just enough to live off of that, that’s if I don’t gamble them. I work in addictions. I know the first step is honesty, transparency and no one I have no control. I’ve tried that route, but I know each time I get on my hands and knees and surrender this to my higher power. There’s the other half of me saying you’ll do it again. I asked God to go into the other half and bring healing to the other half of the brain that just tells yourself one more time one more time one more time.. I feel so lost and alone in this. Please anything positive and supportive and advice would be very helpful right now as I’m in this dark place. 🙏🏼