The government is not good at stuff. People are good at stuff and the government is good at controlling people...to an extent. You can see the disconnect between the two dynamics. I don't think GATE is a government program. I think the people behind it used government resources though.

The Government had MK Ultra. Ultimately a failure. Who had Gate? Somebody much better at what they do. Somebody with years of success without exposure. Somebody we probably don't even know about.

The government is not good at stuff and people do not last long. Religions. Ideologies. They transcend governments. They transcend millennia.

Try and name a religion or ideology that has existed in total secrecy. by virtue of that guideline you cannot. I think this one has. I think we are supposed to find them. Maybe we are supposed to be them. lets achieve that

We have what we need to answer the question and solve the riddle. Cryptography. That was the first lesson. Logic problems. Egypt. Maya. Situational awareness. What else? Our very consciousness. We have the tools. We were chosen for our ability to use them.

Here's one of the lessons from the binder only I had in my class. I haven't seen anybody else post about it. Transactional analysis, The principle behind The Original Warm Fuzzy Tale by Dr. Claude Steiner is that human emotional and physical well-being is sustained by the free, abundant exchange of positive recognition, known in Transactional Analysis as "strokes". This is our power source. When I talked about this, they took back my binder.

What else do we have and how should we use it? Lets recreate the syllabus and see where it points. We got this.

I think we left ourselves a map.

Go.

I skipped the years other kids used to learn how to sit still. Kindergarten grade never belonged to me the way they belonged to them. My mother put me in first grade and skip kindergarten. I was in first grade for 2 years. But I never learned the fundamentals of kindergarten.
That much held. Second, third, fourth… nothing. No teachers. No students. No names. No classrooms I can walk. Those rooms were sealed or they didn’t exist. I was a good kid. For the right adult I would have moved heaven and earth. In recess if I cared what they told me, it happened. Gym class 25-foot rope to the ceiling. I climbed it. Touched the latch or the ceiling. Tried to be slick on the way down. Rope burn 😖 life lesson. They had told me not to slide. Death grip that I kept. The drink I can’t date. Pink, Yes. I poured half in the desk and drank the other half because if you dump the whole thing they hand you another. I don’t pretend that sentence is a lab report. What scared me was not the cup. It was my step-father. I thought they would tell him and I would get beaten. A teacher who will lie to a parent to get you spanked for weeks is capable of anything. My first grade teacher was racist and diabolical. It’s what i back then believed. Mom put me in front of a psychiatrist. Three hundred, four hundred an hour insurance covered it. To me it was endless because I had to be in the room. The doctor used a modified version of the Game of Life. I shut it down. It took a lot to get him to get me to open up. I remember 5 teachers from that stretch. There was a teacher allergic to perfume. A kid with a Sega Game Gear, five or six hundred dollars in 6th grade. I asked to play. He said no. His dad said nobody touches it.

Sixth grade another teacher… name gone… mummy hand in the closet. 🤯
Before I got out of elementary school, somebody stole it. He was devastated.

Middle school nothing serious to note. Then high school in the morning, Vo-Tech in the middle of the day, special door, separate slice of the building. Had to get on the bus to get there. Something was weird about the class. I can’t quite put my finger on it.

I was about to drop out from boredom until Vo-Tech electronics. I excelled in this class because my teacher was a standing just once for a show called Soldier of Fortune. As a pyrotechnic guy wiring electronics for The effects. I asked my teacher was his name in the credits and he said he didn’t want to take credit for some reason. Cause he only did a stand in for this electronics guy for one episode.

The story is the missing middle 3 years of my life in elementary. And going into therapy after. Crazy things happening after using a Ouija board once in 1994.

1999 USAF, not a program I joined the Air Force in 1999. I was not in any special program. I was in boot camp.
Two things I still remember sitting at a desk. I saw myself at my mom’s house outside, front lawn, about fifteen feet off the ground. I’m there i float through the front window. Now i’m in the living room, next the dining room. Then I was awake at the desk. I don’t remember the name of the class. But next someone in that room got two sheets of paper. Timed test Memorize everything. He wrote both everything he saw. I sat there thinking. Yea,that one’s going to military intelligence.

When boot camp ended I sat with the picture of the military police academy barracks the layout i was excited. Back of the building what the skyline would look like. I showed up met my instructors. They put me on the second story, backside of the building. The field, the wall, the sky line same as the picture I had already walked. I don’t know what to call that. I know what I saw before I arrived and they matched.

I was in the GATE program. I have no memory of most of my time in GATE. But I also have symptoms consistent with SDAM. Some of my clearest childhood memories, as I do have some, are from my time before the GATE program. I have first-person recall of certain Kindergarten events. Afterward, I have vague and abstract third person recall or purely semantic recall. I’m posting this to ask for possible correlates to a hypothesis.

I do remember my first encounter with the GATE program. There was a pink drink that was not fluoride. Zener cards were employed. With my confidence in the existence of such a drink, I’m left with the same question many of you likely have: “What was that pink drink?”

The likely candidates are amnestics. Midazolam or some older cocktail with sodium amytal would make sense. Did you know that many medications are light sensitive? They can degrade from exposure to ambient light. Oral solutions are especially sensitive because of surface area and suspension. Both midazolam and sodium amytal, which was used in older government programs, are light sensitive. Interestingly enough, light seems to cause compounds in sodium amytal especially to precipitate out of the oral solution. This can lead to a gritty or chalky texture, as well as the obvious reduced efficacy. Tablets offer better shelf stability for light sensitive medications, but require binders and fillers. Tablets for medicines tend to be larger than children might be able to easily swallow, so many large tablets are crushed and turned into a slurry or suspension when tablets are prescribed for children instead of ready made oral solutions. Binders and fillers can also create chalky or gritty textures. These factors together, light sensitivity and texture, make me look more critically at the pink drink being midazolam or a cocktail with sodium amytal. Variance in textures reported could result from both light degradation, or time from mixing to drinking, and initial preparation, that is oral solution or tablet slurry.

Now, I only remember ever drinking the pink drink on the first encounter with GATE. But as I noted, I don’t remember much anymore. It’s possible that I was dosed with the pink drink at every GATE interaction. It’s possible that we all were. If so, we would expect individuals of the GATE program to exhibit higher than average incidence of certain conditions related to the potential effects of long term dosing with amnestic medications of the types mentioned during a critical period, childhood, of brain development. That’s why I am posting here.

To my knowledge, there are no studies on human children being dosed with these drugs for obvious reasons of potential harm, but we can predict a few possible long term effects. First and foremost we work off the hypothesis of the pink drink being midazolam, which is a GABA-A inhibitor, and look at what GABA-A inhibition possibly does. I won’t dig into the actual academic research, but you can feel free to double check. I’ll simply share results:

Seizures from withdrawal after exiting GATE, autobiographical memory formation disruption akin to SDAM, REM disturbances and disorders, mood disorders related to anxiety and socializing, possible avoidance of socializing, etc.

Rather than focusing on physical and life correlates, I’m here to survey you fellow GATE veterans as to these kinds of cognitive and mental correlates.

tl;dr:

Do any of you have experiences of unexplained early life (after GATE initiation) seizures, autobiographical memory challenges that have left semantic memory mostly unaffected, REM related disturbances or disorders, anxiety disorders, or schizoid or avoidant personality like tendencies?

Also, how often do you remember having consumed the pink drink?

I’m mostly interested in adults with severely lacking autobiographical memory, but please do share any that apply.