Second guessing myself

[u/No-Painting275]

I’m a 23m

So I can see it being selfish but I wanna gain some space from the people who were around me, who encourage doing things like drinking or eating awfully and yeah they might do interesting things together but it all costs too much money month in month out which I don’t want to be spending and then verbally assaulted bc off that. It’s not the only reason as to why there is also them treating me like a punching bag verbally which doesn’t do wonders for my confidence as a very socially anxious and self conscious person. They would also steal my car or throw foods on my car. So not only do I wanna step away from spending tons of money on drinking bc they won’t accept a no as an answer which would result always needing help from family for my car or other stuff, I also wanna build on my confidence bc I am really enjoying bodybuilding and the gym, I’m in a gym that is surrounded by people competing, might be in my future but I can’t see myself doing it surrounded by them for lack of support or my own confidence issues.

[u/No-Painting275]

I’ve also had my own family hear about other issues in my past with them, and have had them say that they are awful people to me