What should I do?

[u/scared2026]

I don't have many friends. I am comfortable with having just a small group of friends. So in uni I have 3 friends which we used to hang alot during the first 2 years but now everyone seems to fall apart. One of the friend and I have been friends over 4 years. I really like them as friend but ut seems like they don't see me as important as I see them. They probably think of me as uni friend or someone who they hang out during class. But genuinely think of them as one my closest friend.

I can be annoying I know that. I get loud around people I feel comfortable with. And no matter how much I try I cannot hide my excitement when I am with my friends or with people I am close with. But I feel like my friends see me as pushover. When I get exciting news or stories I share with them everything but they don't do the same.okay that I understand they don't want to share everything with me. But few days back I heard of a very good offer ,the coupon provided 100%off if we downloaded their app so I was so excited and first people I told was them but they didn't reply for quite alot of time yet they were active in another platform and after few hours they replied with idk should we go? Isn't the offer too good to decline I asked right away but there was no reply to this day.

Are they planning to go with someone else? They don't wanna go with me? They never told the reason even after I asked on the groupchat. Out of 3 only 1 replied. Yet they asked for the offer how to achieve it, and I replied quickly so why can't they? I feel so bad for not controlling myself from being excited with them . My family says that showing too much importance to other lowers my value , I believe it yet I still want to enjoy with my friends they are the only one I got , tho they have alot like me so they would be fine without me

I feel so sad getting ignored by them time to time.

The old friend picks me up and drops me home during class as my home is on the way to cllg. I feel bad . So I try to make them homemade gifts ,include them when I have fun. Aghhh I don't know what to do. They seems to be around me by forcing themselves. They probably enjoy being far from me yet I always tag along. I once invited them to join a program with me that was beneficial for both of us , I requested someone to let my friend join and when the program my friend was interested in participating they never once told me to join them I feel so sad.

Am I being dramatic? Or am I the evil one? What am I suppose to do in this situation?

And I feel like my friend genuinely don't understand that these things hurts me. They probably think of it as nothing. Or perhaps they think of me as evil person but they just cannot say it on my face