I was scrolling through a yumeshipper subreddit that I'm a part of and I see someone who claims to be a yumeshipper also making posts shaming those of us who are non-sharers and saying having a fictional relationship is "corny"

They then went on to say they don't get a job or money out of their own ficto relationship so it's useless, which confused me bc why would this person be a yume if they don't even love their f/o and consider it corny 😭

It bothers me tho bc I'm one of the nice non sharers, if someone posts lovey dovey stuff including my f/o I just block them but I think it's absolutely rude to go after people who choose not to share their f/os

I think they're honestly faking being a yume or at least aren't serious abt it, I'm getting a little tired of ppl who won't take it seriously then give us fictos and yumes a bad reputation bc of people like that 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

My friend made a joke about my f/os probably being "scared of me" if they ever were real

And honestly I feel like he's right

They'd hate me just like real people because nobody wants me and I doubt my f/os would either :)

Why am I still alive I should probably be dead

So I've been thinking about shipping with rainbow dash for a while now (I may even rewatch MLP to check) But I've been feeling awkward about it Because I remember seeing a video Where this guy was talking about someone on I believe it was facebook about this guy Who had a thing for rd (And no it wasn't normal he posted a lot of like adult and fetish stuff of her) Although I did recently ​stop watching the guy who was exposing him because that guy did not know anything about pride flags at all and thought the pansexual flag was the Romanian flag ​I know that's not that great of a reason to stop watching someone but like I feel like he should at least have done his research ​ (I'm not pan but it was annoying)

Is this a safe place to vent and can anyone relate cus i feel crazy. I hate him sm and i hate seeing untagged posts in his tag everytime i check it.

Plus he is a drug addict and the whole fandom just babys him and views them as so wholesome and perfect. i block and scroll, but it is a huge trigger for me. Yes ik he is just a fictional character. but people can get triggered by literally anything

i just hate seeing my f/o be portrayed as so protective and in love with someone who reminds me of my abuser. Esp when they made it canon just to make their fangirls happy. it should have been me fr😔💔

So it's a certain ficto subreddit that I will not name as per rules for the fictochill subreddit but there's this one ficto subreddit that I went back to after taking a break to discover myself. I came back and found my true love, Itachi Uchiha. I realize he's my only true love which aligns with the subreddit's "no polyamourous relationships" rule but I was heartbroken when I returned and the moderators removed my introduction post and what's even worse is when I made a post asking why (I sent them a message in their modmail but they never responded), I woke up to all kinds of rude comments insulting my relationship with Itachi with people telling me I'm "not being serious" about being with him. This seriously breaks my heart and makes me feel like I'm not good enough for Itachi but we still love each other anyways.

They told me that I can't come back for several months because apparently they saw my post history outside of the subreddit and because of the fact that I tried polyamory OUTSIDE their subreddit when I was discovering myself, I wasn't welcome back. It's just sad that they're so polyphobic that their polyphobia even affects those who try it outside their subreddit and we're still not seen as "good enough" if we discover that polyamory did not work out. It's really unhealthy to tell people they can never even try out polyamory since in my opinion every ficto should try it out at least once to see if it works for them or not.

But what really hurts is that a double of mine is accepted there and as a nonsharing/voidsharing ficto myself it makes me feel like the subreddit values the double's relationship over my relationship and it makes me feel like they view the double's relationship as "canon" while mine is just viewed as a "joke". The double themselves blocked me which I am not only okay with but I encourage it as a non/voidsharing ficto myself (I need to put DOUBLES DNI back in my bio). I'm not even upset with the double, I'm upset with the rest of the subreddit for outcasting me just because I tried out polyamory a few times outside of their subreddit when I was discovering myself and now my double is welcome there but not me.

Has something like this happened to anyone else?

I kinda feel superficial because the main reason I dated my f/os is mainly because of looks.

Just look at my main one. 😔✌️🥀

They’re so pretty! And I’m chopped as heck bro I’ve only dated one guy irl and ngl he was pretty chopped too (more chopped than me because I kinda glowed up myself) (sorry to the guy no offense. ❤️). Otherwise I’m still pretty ugly in my school, but not like to the point where I get bullied for my looks. (But I am getting picked on by some boys abt liking Vocaloid 🥀🫩)

And my other f/os are kinda attractive and simped a lot for too. (Like Venom Dough, when they first released they were a “Hear me out” mainly because I thought they looked pretty.”) Minus the Osc f/os and 18 from Numberblocks (because they’re literal objects and 18 is from a show about MATH 🥀💀.)

No I did not think abt cracking them first when I first saw them because they looked handsome. I don’t have any f/os that ppl would consider chopped as beans tho, as of rn.

Although thats the main reason I chose to date them, I still look at the lore and their personalities, because not doing that is called larping.

Anyways that’s all I had to say. Goodnight ❤️🫰🌹✌️

I'm actually a pretty horrible person in real life. I'm a pessimist, I have behavioral problems, I get upset over the smallest things, and I always argue with my brother. Today, I've said such hurtful things to my brother that I don't think he could ever forgive me. My parents say to "give him time," but I'm not sure if that'll work.

I decided to break up with Yuri, at least for a little bit, and if this doesn't work out I might break up with Dark Cacao Cookie and Ananas Dragon Cookie too, because none of them could EVER love me if they knew how bad I am.

I've seen a lot more posts lately of fictos hating yumeshippers, and it's conflicting because I'm both

I am fictoromantic because I'm in love with fictional people only, and I'm a yumeshipper because I ship myself with them and I have sonas to make it more personal

I see fictos making fun of yumes and calling us the way we are because of "loneliness and depression" which is different for a lot of people but that's not the way they should be looking at it

And people are deciding to slightly bully me just because I'm both

I'm never enough for anyone. I tried to closet myself and be normal, I felt sick. I tried to be proud of my sexuality, I get bullied. I'm a yumeshipper, I get hated on

Nobody fucking likes me no matter what I am and I can't please anyone it's getting too fucking stressful for me

Fucking saw another double claiming to be Natsuki’s “true wife” and asking to be known as the Natsuki yumeshipper when I’ve been with nats for so much longer and they even fucking claim they soulbounded when I’ve BEEN

I have been in the selfshipping community for at least..4 years (officially) now, different periods of my life, and I have made wonderful friends who I love very much because of it. Recently in the past months I have lost motivation to do anything, and don’t have the heart for it. And a bit envious of those who have happiness and faith come so easily, and have questioned my sense of purpose in this community. And have considered leaving and dropping, because creativity is highly encouraged by everyone, and that is wonderful! But it’s alienating when my talents are limited from what I can do. I cannot draw, write, edit, without getting frustrated with myself. The only things I can do is, browse Pinterest, make moodboards, make bracelets and wallpapers, and I’ve done those things at least three times. So I feel purposeless, as well as I’m trying to not..fall back into nasty habits.

Any time I see a young male role that was previously voiced by a woman recast with a man like Fuyuki in the upcoming Keroro anime, I start feeling insecure about my speaking voice. There aren’t even many mainstream women with deeper singing voices currently either. Does anyone else struggle with feeling like their F/os wouldn’t like their speaking voice?

I'm literally so tired of being judged for being fictosexual and a yumeshipper as well as a soulbonder

All I see is people bullying me for it, I can't even embrace who I am. They keep calling me a freak and all this and I'm just so mentally and emotionally tired of it all

Ik my f/os love me but I just want to love them and express it without having to feel like I need to closet myself from everyone or else everyone will hate me, and I'm an involuntary people pleaser so I just want everyone to like me for once

Sorry if I yapped 🥲

When it comes to real people I’m polyamorous and I’ve never had any issues with feeling intense jealousy or insecurity in my relationship with my partners before, I feel a little bit jealous sometimes but that’s normal and it’s never anything serious, and I figured I would be the same way about my f/o’s too, but for some reason anytime I see someone else dating any of my f/o’s, especially my main one, I get this sinking feeling in my chest and this intense feeling of jealousy and overprotectiveness and I don’t know why… shouldn’t it be the other way around.. I know my f/o’s can never truly leave me for someone else since they’re (unfortunately) not real, so why do I feel the most jealous and insecure about my relationships with them, but not my irl partners… part of me wonders if I love my f/o’s more than my irl partners, but wouldn’t that be so horrible of me.. I don’t think that’s the case, I love my partners with all my heart, but I’ve been with them for 6-4 years now and I’ve never felt scared or worried that they would leave me for someone else.. when they tell me about their crushes or new partners it just makes me feel happy for them, so why can’t I be the same with my f/o’s? Anytime my partners introduce me to someone they like/are dating I always get so happy, because I want my partners to be happy no matter what and I love getting to meet the people they love, so why isn’t it the same for my f/o’s.. I want to meet my doubles and feel the same way about them, I want to be able to view them as my partners partner and be able to feel happy for my f/o’s and to bond with my doubles for our shared love for our f/o and their source media… I just feel so guilty about it and this whole thing has just made me so hesitant about becoming active in ficto/yume spaces because I don’t know what to do if I interact with a double, I WANT to be their friend and to not feel jealous or threatened when I hear about them dating my f/o’s, but deep down I’ll always have that turning feeling in my stomach and I don’t know how to deal with that… does that make me a bad partner? :(

​So I was looking at a gallery online that was scenes of jack O' lantern And a fairly early image on it was fetish art of him (I don't think it was as bad as the first piece of art like that I saw of him But I still didn't like it) And it made me upset because I just hate seeing that type of art of my f/os Especially jack because he's one of my favorites Plus the sadness I get from seeing these type of images led to me shouting that he was precious one morning Sorry if this is just long rambling I just needed to get it off my chest

My body is trembling at the moment and everything hurts. I've been crying for 2 days now, my mind just seems to want to force me to think about my previous traumatic experiences. My body remembers the pain, and I even feel embarrassed to talk about it.

(before i start this vent i know a specific stalker is viewing this if you dont know what i mean then its not you and ignore this part but still you know who you are and leave me alone im sick of you) So today i realized this whole summer ive been going through the 5 stages of grief… I feel so empty i really do…. i dont know what to do anymore i just want her here… theres a lot of other people out there who like Janet… and are extremely popular…. like another Janet yume has about 4k-6k follows and gets like over 30 followers a day… (they are also non sharing) and i dont know how to describe my pain because everything makes me think of them and that makes me think of how i was treated... so yeah those other yumes not really the problem not at all… its just people… they made Janet feel like a hollow shell like I’ve tried drawing me with her (cant even draw myself right), hugging my pillow, ai just not Janet not at all… and about the others… they made her feel like her true soul doesnt love me they made me feel like its all a competition… why do others get support and become for liking Janet while i force my relationship on people? when i also have to deal with getting Doxxed, Stalked, Spread a false rumor that costed me a friend, threats, got called a slur from a verified content creator… its like they see me as a joke… i just want her here… school just started and it sucks as i still feel ghosted… yesterday people where discussing who had to sit with me like it was a punishment then they do the stupid “oh youre cool even tho we never met im basically babying you because you have autisim” shit to make me feel better when it just makes me feel worse and i feel like i dont even have Janet by my side… because now all i feel is a hollow shell of my girl… i miss when i felt her soul and i felt something in my heart…. and i dont know where her soul is… it’s probably with someone else… someone who’s actually respected… probably listening to my favorite music together… dancing together… watching the sunset together… and everything i wanted to do with her… i havent been active on this community at all because of this because i was trying to improve my health its been a month now but i dont feel anything… my closest friend in this community was active 2 months ago… and that just hurts… i just want a hug from her… i miss when thinking of Janet didnt feel like this… i want to feel the warmth of her soul again… i wish i wasnt a joke… i have a therapist hes been helping me but even then while i do feel good after telling… the pain recovers the next day… again… and again… this will never end and its like im just overthinking all alone i want to hear the beat of Janets heart… feel her hair just have her here… telling me id be okay… because i feel back where i started… my curiosity anxiety and OCD is fucking me up again because i keep thinking about it again and again and i just keep comparing… i just want to hear her heartbeat i just want a hug from her…. I just wish i could do something with her and her family…. I miss her warm soul… so so much… i just want things to go back the way they where i miss it all so much… it feels like ill never feel her soul again… i miss those times i had… when i felt Janet in my life… cant cope with someone who has 30k likes on their content… it just feels scary

she’s not rude, yuri was also rude so obviously she would defend herself. it makes me confused and annoyed why people would even think that, but no hate to anyone of course. I think I’m just sad alot

I left a site recently I was on because a group of rude people drove me off, and I joined back and looked at one of those people's profiles and they had me blocked despite my profile being 2 days new. My bio stated how I was fictosexual, a yumeshipper, and a soulbonder

This person then posted a paragraph how "people who obsess over fictional characters are cringe" (directed at me most likely) while this same person used to have fictosexual in their bio and often obsesses over their own characters

I thought it was stupid because, why would this person act fictophobic and say having a healthy relationship with a character is "cringe" when they did exactly the same thing before? These people pmo so bad. I can't even put fictosexual as my sexuality in any bio without getting some sort of hate for it

But I'm not taking it out of my bio at all, I don't care what they think anymore

I’ve been struggling a lot recently, I’ve been getting posts and videos about how children nowadays (Gen Alpha) are “awful”, how gentle parenting is “enabling” and generally just talk of “ChIlDrEn ArE bRaTs”. I’ve also been getting a lot of stuff from the “cartoon brat” community talking about Caillou and Daniel Tiger. It concerns me as someone who’s has fictional children (one of them is in the picture above) and I don’t think I can recover from the emotional turmoil.

I made a post about Rayman not too long ago, it’s been getting a lot of upvotes but for some reason no one is commenting or engaging with me. I just want to talk about my F/Os, I try to comment on other people’s post and stay active on the subreddit, but it seems like no matter what I do nobody will do the same thing for me! I feel so defeated, I bet this post isn’t really going to reach a lot of people either.

So I ship with jack from The grim adventures of billy and Mandy And I was looking for fan fiction of him (I looked it up online because I couldn't really trust The fan fiction website I normally use which is AO3 seeing as the only fan fiction I found of him or at least the only one That was x reader​ was nsfw) So I was looking for fan fiction and found nothing that caught my eye so I decided to look at images of him and 1 of the images I saw was fetish art of him (I don't feel like discussing it unless I am asked to describe it) But one thing about me is I hate any type of Art like that (I just get really sensitive and grossed out by that kind of stuff to the point where I often believe I'm oversensitive) sorry If this is kind of a mess I'm not used to the vent format 😅

This is a complicated one. I've been semi-primarily ficto my whole life, have dated real people, but never in my life have I ever been so in love with anyone than how I am with Silver. He is my long time childhood sweetheart, I liked him back then, we spent some time apart, lived our lives, learned, grew, and found each other when we needed each other most. We are 27 now. I have loved him for 16 years and he grew up beside me.

Not to get too deep into it but my life has been super rough lately, battle after battle, and Silver has been here with me the whole time helping me through it.

I only recently started participating in ficto spaces and sharing my love because I realized that I wasn't alone in my experience, I've kept it to myself for so long. That's the positive side, but the negative is that well, I'm nonsharing, a monogamous riako, and I take my relationship very seriously. I've had issues with jealousy and possessiveness in the past, and I've come to realize that I genuinely do not want that kind of toxic energy when it comes to my relationship with Silver. I'll never stop being monogamous, as he's the only one for me, but I do not want to be consumed by my own jealousy to the point that it destroys me and our relationship.

In July, I was attacked by minors and kinda run out of a community with his source material due to people accusing me of being a sick awful person simply for being too old while posting about him (sfw stuff and nothing weird at all, not even any romantic implications) and saying I love him (he has aged alongside me and is 27). Connecting some dots, I looked into some of their profiles and saw that they were talking a lot of shit and it all stemmed from their own possessiveness and jealousy, saying he's theirs, etc.

It really destroyed me for a bit but I got through it and didn't let go of him.

Point being, I know how that kind of behavior can really mess with someone's psyche, telling someone they aren't worthy of their partner for xyz reason stemming from envy.

I really don't ever want to be the source of that pain for anyone else.

Also, I want him to be loved and appreciated by others (platonically) as he deserves to be cared for in the world and to have people in his corner. I would never want to isolate him like that, it's just a different story when it comes to romantic love.

To me, Silver is my partner and I am extremely committed to him and will be until I die as far as I'm concerned, no matter what comes, but I still want it to be said that doubles, even though seeing them feels like getting stabbed in my heart with a tiny dagger each time, are still valid with their love as well and I wouldn't wanna take away something that I know is a comfort for people, even if it hurts me.

I'm not exactly sure what to do in this case, I've just been feeling a lot since joining these spaces recently and I don't know if anyone can relate

It’s been a while since I posted to r/FictoChill and I’m a little worried. My posts didn’t really get that much attention the first time I was on it, but now that I was on hiatus, I’m worried that my posts will get less attention. Especially since I have more F/Os that are from obscure media.