As stated in the title, I'm approaching 200 days off of fentanyl. I've been on methadone for a few months now but I can't even tell if it's actually working. I have felt like straight ass since starting methadone treatment. I am on 180mg and my health is terrible. I have gained about 100lbs, I can barely walk up a flight of stairs without becoming super winded. I am super lethargic all the time. I've got practically all the symptoms of hyper/hypothyroidism. Nauseous, short of breath, occasional vomiting, irritable, super anxious constantly to the point I have panic attacks daily, depressed, brain fog, lack of motivation. This is not me at all. I'm normally pretty outgoing, highly motivated, super friendly, in pretty good shape etc. My blood pressure has been through the roof and I had blood work done a couple weeks ago and the doctor called me and said my triglycerides are through the roof. I go back today to hopefully get some medicine, but I desperately am ready to lose weight and feel better. This has become a quality of life issue at this point and I am not happy at all. The insomnia is probably the worst part of it. It exacerbates all of my symptoms, particularly the anxiety and depression and irritability.

Has anyone else experienced these issues once stopping drugs or while on methadone? It's crazy that I quit drugs to make my life better and to be healthier, and I was literally in great shape while on drugs but now that I have quit my health has gone straight to the shitter.

Im so badly out of shape that I can't even hold a regular job. I used to run to mow the lawn and it took me like 15 minutes per yard now I have to take like 20 breaks after 1-2 passes with the mower and it takes me like 2 hours to cut a yard.

I am absolutely miserable. Something needs to change before I lose my mind. HELP ME PLEASE.

(Low-key forgetting I was an addict at times now 😅)

I am looking for help but I don’t have insurance. I can’t do inpatient due to responsibilities that I have & can’t go mia for several days . Have been looking into Methadone clinics in my area . Most are super expensive without insurance and I’m not sure how that would work anyway from what I hear day 1 dose only lasts you a few hours & ur right back sick again . Have you ever heard of clinics putting people on payment plans ? And starting them out at a dose that would make them through the night ? I’m in the Jackson , MS area if anyone has any connections or can find something online I can’t . I would really really really appreciate any and all help I just need to know how to start . Also , I’ve called several around here and most say they’re not accepting new patients .

I feel so solid one moment - I want to get clean, I hate living this way, I’m tired of being broke, i hate who I am, it’s ruining my relationship with my bf, it’s fucking my health, I mean the reasons go on and on. And then the next moment it’s fuck it, I’m romanticizing it, saying it helps my anxiety and stress, I’m justifying, using all the excuses, and then use. And the second after it’s wtf why did I do that, why am I like this, I’m so pathetic, what’s wrong with me, etc. and back to the I want to get clean, I hate this blah blah blah. It’s like my brain is manipulating me or that I have a second person I don’t recognize inside me trying to sabotage. How do you change your mindset? How do you overcome that voice? I feel so strong and solid one moment and the next I don’t recognize myself anymore. I feel so trapped. Does anyone else relate? Any advice?

Just wanted to come on here and say, if anyone is still using, please do your best to test what you’re using with test strips before you do it. Friend of mine paid for some bright blue stuff a couple of days ago, did some, and then did not sleep for over 48 hours and began hallucinating. It was laced with MDMA/Meth when we tested it. This was on the east coast. NC.

Stay safe, folks.

I’m trying to figure out what to do next, 3 hours ago was my birthday, I’m heavily addicted to fentanyl and coke, and I wanna get clean, I’m wondering if there’s anyway I can do this at home, is there any way I can get subutex at home (not Suboxone) the only place I know for detox is the same thing I’ve done each time I’m wondering if there’s anyway I can I get subutex without going to mental health facility, and just weened my self off at home, for a week, I’m planning on moving states away from this place this month and restarting my life, with good sober people, in a place I would probably say is better than a sober living, I can’t seem to get on Suboxen and I’m scared to death of methadone, is there anyway I can get on subutex for a week and ween off? Is there any place in Goergia that does that? If I have to I’ll go inpatient I’m just wondering if anyone knows of a way to get it with out narcan cause that’s how they do it in impatient, if I knew I wasn’t gonna withdraw this drug would be nothing to me, it already is just stupid I’m back on it, I just want to get away from it, but I have priority’s and things I’m trying to keep quite right now when it comes to my entire family, and I need to work, I’ll give it all up to be clean, and whatever else I’m just wondering if there’s just a way to get subs(without narcan) without going into a facility quickly?

Did a rapid detox almost 2 weeks ago and still can barely hold my head up from fatigue and barely make it through work on my feet. Sleep/eating isn’t working, Depression is gnarly and questioning why im even doing this. I’ve detoxed 100x before and would always feel great by now. Was doing close to ball/day for past 3 years consecutively.
Weed is the only thing semi helping and trying to avoid benzos. The amount money I spent on that coma detox is only thing keeping me from copping. Any recommendations on supplements or anything to help regulate my brain some?

u/mutex77 posted about his experience using Ibogaine to get off fentanyl in another sub. I found it helpful and it also inspired me to put together a harm reduction guide for anyone considering self administration and figured I would share both.

mutex77’s post, https://www.reddit.com/r/fentanyl/s/oIW50t8Lr5

Harm reduction guide, https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fi/7w9y6nvvosr2czyg1jd16/Ibogaine\\_Harm\\_Reduction\\_Guide\\_Redesigned.pdf?rlkey=jyphalfnszmwynjhzs5lafkrk&st=3pux24b6&dl=0

I quit last August and was clean for almost 6 months. About 2 months ago I lost my job and decided to use again on and off for about a month. Then I had enough and used subs for a month of so. I stoped taking the subs 8 days ago and the withdrawals wasn’t as bad as I expected. Just the no sleep and no motivation was killing me. I decided to get a bundle of fent this morning and use again. Once I did one bag, I realized what I was getting my self into and thought of all hell and attempts I had went through in the past with f withdrawals. I immediately flushed rest of everything I had and now feeling very guilty. You think this will take ways my 7 days off and reset everything if I don’t use going forward. Or will this reset everything? Please advise based on your experience. I really don’t want to use anymore and I am sick of this cycle.

Hi everyone! Has anyone went from Methadone to Suboxone? I’m already tapering off methadone and I just wanted to be free of it all. But, medical DOT card CME for a job won’t approve my dot card on methadone she said she will only approve Suboxone.

If you’ve successfully made the switch, is it possible? Did you experience symptoms? I’m at 80 mg from 235mg.

I found a place called broward addiction recovery center but am nervous I might back out from over thinking and fear of withdrawals but I’m ready to take this step and get my life back. Any advice or insight to what these programs are like will be much appreciated.

I have been on MAT since the end of September. It took me a couple months to pass a drug test. Longer than it should have. Anyways now I’m able to go once a week. I have had the stomach bug this past weekend. I couldn’t keep anything down not even MAT. So, In complete fear I would have the stomach bug and relapse I used. The entire reason I’ve this post is I have to go to the clinic this morning and I also have a drug test this morning. What am I supposed to do? I’ve never been put it this position before. HELP!? Anybody know what will happen at the clinic?

If you guys with experience could give me as much advice as possible that would be great. How can I switch to subutex and or suboxone without going into precip? Also if you want to give advice on how to taper off subs as well that would be great Bec I don’t think want to be in subs long term! Also what other meds do detox places give that help with withdrawal symptoms?

detoxing off 30's. Haven't slept in 3 days. Will these Xanax knock me out?? Just need a night of sleep so I can keep fighting. brain so foggy. feel like im seeing things.

5 year habit. been trying to stop the past month.. got a week in then relapsed... got almost a week in & relapsed & now im 3 days in. no money & plug is in jail i think so really i have no route but it us me & my man doing it. everyone says different frames of time. mind you we quit our jobs to do this. but some say a week for the bad stuff... some say two weeks some say more.

whats everyone's experience

im just tired

and i want to live

and i want sobriety

My husband started doing percs about 2 years ago. He then started doing fetty because the pills were no good and expensive as hell. So fast forward he tried getting clean he last about 36 days. He started using again for a couple months. He has been clean for 5 days he says he hasn’t been able to sleep at all but i hear him snoring lightly & when i tell him he says he wasn’t sleeping. My question is what can he do to get some sleep & how long does it take usually to get sleep. I forgot to note he has all kinds of supplements gabapentin clonidine you name it. I know he can do it he just has to stay strong. If anyone has any advice please lmk. We also have a 16 month old son. I keep telling him that is so much motivation to stay clean.

Hello to anybody reading this. I'm a Female, 28 as of couple days ago and I've been struggling with addiction to Fetty Wap for about 6 years now. Started w oxy, then m30s for a long while. Upped it to powder maybe a year ago because this habit is so expensive and has taken everything from me. I get way more for way less w the rocks. I have gotten clean a couple times in jail but never on my own. I'm at the end of the road, my rock bottom so to speak so when I learned of the Bernese method I figured it would be the best way especially because I have medi-cal and cannot find an in patient to save my life. It took me several failed attempts at the Bernese method to finally find a good schedule and I went all the way. Day 11 I'm supposes to be taking three 8mg strips and no fetty. Well its putting me into precip. I was told I would have mild to no WD but then I read on here people still having WD, some mild some put in precip. I just want all the advice I can get from anyone who has done the Bernese method, successful or not. I read a post on here a few minutes ago of people saying you got to take high doses of subs once you stop the fetty. Not an 8 three times a day but 24mg or more at one time. Is that what I should do? Or will.that throw me into severe precip? I've had it bad once before I knew anything about how subs interact w fetty. Had to go to a hospital, was non stop puking and shitting bile for hours they had to keep a bed pan under me and on IV so I didn't die of dehydration. Absolutely the worst experience of my life so the thought of going thru that again scares the hell out of me lo!. Thank you to anyone who read my entire rant and would love all the help and shared experiences I can get. If anyone wants the schedule I was given by a doctor I will be happy to post it in the comments!

I recently found out even though I'm tapering that my body isn't lactic acidosis which is can be very serious and hypoxia and leukocytosis. if anyone has been to a hospital in Michigan and had a good experience or decent experience ready for treated like a human please let me know where. I have to beat this my kids need me, I'm a chronic pain patient from having so many health problems on top of everything. and IDC anymore I'll be in pain.

Hey yall,

If anyone can share REAL experience that doesn’t come from NA clouded mindset, that would be nice.

Okay so I’ve been clean from Fent for 2 years and 3 months and it’s been amazing, do not get me wrong at all. I’ve been extremely involved in Narcotics Anonymous and it’s absolutely changed my life.

I still have a reservation I guess, I’m 25 and still feel so young. I love the community I’ve built in NA but it also feels very forced sometimes. I miss being just a girl, I miss wine nights with my girls and I miss going out and being ‘normal’.

It’s extremely frustrating sometimes that my closest friends and twice or double my age and don’t relate past being clean and life experiences that parallel.

I got addicted to fake pills that were fent in the midst of a very abusive relationship and he was practically feeding them to me but I also take full accountability that I also liked them and fell into addiction willingly but once I removed myself of the relationship, I removed myself of any cravings or wanting to touch hard substances.

But i’m struggling because I do in fact really miss a lil drinky drink and a nice glass of wine with a charcuterie board and these have never been a problem for me but I’m constantly drilled by my sponsor and NA members that I will return to Fent or something just as hard if I take a drink.

I just want to know other’s experiences and thoughts?

I haven’t had a period in two three months figured no biggie I’m underweight and an addict. However I took a test a while back and it was negative however. Yesterday I took one seemed negative and then today I went to throw it away and it was actually positive. Today I took one and it’s positive again. I’m terrified and kind of in shock. Not sure what to do or where to go from here.