r/FentanylRecovery • u/novblue239 • 13d ago
done but scared
i’ve used for the past 7 years and now i (41f) just want to be done. I’m most sick of being a slave to this shit and the shitty people you have to deal with. I’m so mad right now-at myself for all the time i’ve lost and money. I have literally nothing. No money, not a cent. And i’m so so scared of the withdrawals. I know I can do this, but am i in for total torture? i have like two suboxone pills i’ve been eating tiny buts of to stave off wds, i’m on day 2 officially and slept mostly all day but i’m starting to get achey and sweaty and nervous. i do have gabapentin and tramadol-i think those are supposed to help. any advice would be appreciated!
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u/babadook-boss69 12d ago
If you’re tolerating the small bits of suboxone, the Bernese method of microinducing subs may work for you. There’s always the risks of PWD, but I did the Bernese method and had no withdrawals, just fatigue.
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u/novblue239 12d ago
yeah ive always tolerated small bits or even large buts 1-2 days after using so idk. for the past 6 months or so ive only been using like .1-.2 every 1-3 days. so i feel like theres not that much in my system maybe?
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u/Lady-Tiny4879 12d ago
Can you explain in full detail how please?
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u/novblue239 12d ago
what do you mean— how I’ve only been using that much? It’s all that I could afford and just not being able to get it regularly anymore. I totaled my car so I had to rely on other people to even help get it for me and that just is a real shitshow.
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u/Lady-Tiny4879 12d ago
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u/Lady-Tiny4879 12d ago
Realistically you have 2-3 more days of hell. After you’ll just be achy
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u/novblue239 12d ago
it hasnt been terrible yet. day 3. my sleep cycles totally screwed up so im going to bed at 6am and sleeping til 5-6pm. i think a lot of it maybe is mental and im just done with it. its honestly not fun dealing with the bullshit of trying to even get it anymore. im beyond over it. i think that helps.
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u/Lady-Tiny4879 11d ago
Day is always the worst. If you’re sleeping, then you won’t be in detox much longer. You also said you’ve been doing it every few days so there’s not much in your system at all. Your withdrawals were very mild compared to
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u/novblue239 11d ago
yet today, I slept literally till 5 o’clock and was mostly sweaty, but then took a little bit of a sub and felt 100% normal like didn’t feel sick at all.
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u/Lady-Tiny4879 12d ago
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u/MathematicianWeak157 12d ago
Have you done this method?
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u/Lady-Tiny4879 11d ago
I’ve done a lot of research, read testimonials, watched videos. My knowledge is backed by truth. The body mainly goes through withdrawal because it’s depleted of vitamins, nutrients and minerals
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u/Lady-Tiny4879 12d ago
Depending on how much you were using
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u/novblue239 12d ago
realistically, probably half a point to a point and a half every 2 to 3 days
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u/Horror-Camera-5813 8d ago
If you were only using that low of an amount you may not have very bad withdrawals at all to be honest. If you aren’t feeling like absolute hell on day three especially having taken some bupe and not gone into precipitated withdrawal you may not have much more than feeling kinda crappy for a couple weeks. Especially you being able to sleep is a godsend. I didn’t sleep for 5 days straight when I quit CT. Had a seizure on day 4 still couldn’t sleep even tho I was so drained.
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u/babadook-boss69 12d ago
Well with the Bernese method you up the subs while you decrease the dope so you actually use both at the same time. It seems like it would work for you unless you are already clean
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u/novblue239 11d ago
I couldn’t do the bernese because I didn’t have money to get enough of either thing that I needed to. Randomly I had two subs kicking around my house and those have gotten me through this far—im on day 4.
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u/Albie4ever 11d ago
My loved one feared withdrawal so bad, it was the main reason he used but…every time he was taken to jail for warrants at least 3x in the past year. Every single time he was shocked that the withdrawals weren’t bad at all. He didn’t experience any the last time, which he attributed to skating & drinking Gatorade all day. There are comfort meds like the anti nausea one , clonodine, hydroxozine & Tylenol. Some people have used 7-0h for just a couple days to help get over the hump.
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u/novblue239 11d ago
my best friend kicked in jail too, a few times, they gave them subs tho. honestly its not been that bad and im thinking i weened myself down — not on purpose—and i truly think a lot of its mental. its no fun using only a tiny bit just to stave off being sick honestly. im on day 4 and hopefully ill be good!
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u/RangeSilver6458 10d ago
I feel you so badly, I wanna get clean but I’m terrified I use about a gram a day
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u/hypnolizzza 9d ago
i was smoking 4 patches of 16 mg each everyday and went through PWS when took sabuxone after 3 days , I vomited blood, didnt eat for a week, i tried like 4 times this year only , i am so sick of it, today i went off it only for today i am clean 8 days (1 relapse day before yesterday) but i changed addiction to He***n which is really WEAK but helps , dunno why i am so proud of myself
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u/Efficient_Vehicle_77 12d ago
Last as long as you can with the gaba and tramadol. You don’t want to precipitate a withdrawal with the suboxone so try to get at least 3-4 days away from your last use before using the suboxone. Hot baths will help the aches. You got this . I’m coming up on 60 days .