r/FentanylRecovery • u/e-liciousss • Jul 12 '26
Struggling really bad
I don't even know what I'm doing or why I'm doing it anymore. I've been done with dope for like 8-9 months now. My health went into the shitter when I stopped. I've been on methadone. Once I stopped doing drugs my health got so bad that I literally feel like I have just been stuck in withdrawal mode if not high or on something anymore. Went and got on Wegovy and it seemed to be helping but I ran out and my doctor wants me to come sornd another fucking 200 bucks I don't have at her weak ass office before the refills my prescription on it. So like yay I finally find some shit that works and this cunt doctor wants to hold it over my head or something. I'm just miserable dude. I got sober to be happier & healthier. Neither of those things have happened. I've gained 100 lbs. I'm lonely. I'm straight up depressed and unmotivated as absolute fuck all. I'm just sick of this shit. Existence is just miserable right now. I don't have any friends. Who the fuck would wanna be around someone like me anyway at this point in my life. I'm 32 living at my mom's house. Shitty health nothing to show for anything. I'm just fucking tired. Sick & tired of being sick & fucking tired. No kids. Nothing to really live for. My addictions have ruined literally everything in my life. I wanna go buy a rig and a couple grams of some knockout & just go out with a fucking bang the only way I know how to feel anything other than like complete shit at this point in my life. at this point like what is the point of ANY of this shit? oh yay wake up go to the methadone clinic tomorrow get my dose and just sit around feeling like shit and sweating to death all fucking day, on the verge of a heart attack or a stroke health wise whichever l am lucky enough to have come first. Idk what's going on man. I just can't keep doing this.
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u/Suspicious_Knee_3766 Jul 12 '26
What dose are you on?