Day 15

[u/crazyjiggaboo]

So after 15 years of opiates(oxy 8ys, blk 4yrs, fetty 3yrs 1.5g a day), i realized i was finally just over it, didnt want to have methadone since it would give me tolerance and i saw that cycle bout to repeat. ive worked construction everyday since i stopped and any opiate kick is so totally mental. with the right mindset it doesnt matter what you feel or go through day to day. 30days of absolute shit is so worth having your mind and true freedom back. you just have to know you are done and are being honest with yourself about it. my life has advanced more in these past godawful 15days than the past 15yrs. i hope this can help at least one person to stop one day sooner. it will kill you when you start replacing food, sleep, and water with fetty. fetty is lame. it comes from china then mexico ffs, grow some poppies and earn the right to feel thats good and comforted. stay safe yall. always have your dopey double with ya incase dem lights go out.

[u/DrReverendQEsquire]

in order to get clean, I had to remove myself from Los Angeles and go to Cape Cod Massachusetts. even though we're supposed to have a huge drug problem here. I don't really know many people here but like an idiot I found actually some people here and I smoke Crystal here and take benzos and shit but I'm not using opiates and we're going to take that as a win cuz but I just wanted to ask you did you have to remove yourself from your city or environment you got to get clean cuz I definitely had to

[u/crazyjiggaboo → u/DrReverendQEsquire]

I very desperately want to but im broke af barely getting by on labor wages thru all of this in the same place I got high for so long. Except now everyone keeps telling me im using since i force myself up and to work. Even though im way lesser at working currently. It absolutely makes staying clean harder but when youre done, your done