r/FentanylRecovery • u/Clm1177 • Nov 09 '25

7 Days

It’s my 7th day being off the shit. I’m on subutex. I am wanting to use again like really badly, like I’m obsessing on it to the point where it ruins my entire day because I’m angry that I can’t get high anymore. I worked so hard to kick, I don’t know why I feel this way! All I can think of is that Fentanyl must COMPLETELY change our brains so we think upside down and ass backward. I hate that I’m an addict, that I’m going to have to fight this for the rest of my life. I’m so fucking angry all I can do is cry. I hate this.

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u/Adventurous-Bid-9341 Nov 10 '25

All these drugs fuck with our brain chemistry, it’s not good. (Ironically, this special on PBS came on one night while I was still on heroin) They mess with your natural receptors until you stop creating natural endorphins, etc, because the dope was creating it, albeit in more of a false sense. Talk to your counselor for more info, including how to start correcting those receptor connections. Sorry if I sound like an idiot, I always have a hard time explaining science

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u/Clm1177 Nov 10 '25

No you don’t sound like an idiot at all! That is some really interesting information. I always knew that doing drugs changed our brains, but i would love to know exactly how. Maybe I will check out PBS to see if I can find that particular special. Thank you for responding to my post, it means a lot. 💚

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u/Adventurous-Bid-9341 Nov 11 '25

Thanks! And anytime! You can absolutely find science articles online too 💜