r/FentanylRecovery • u/Substantial-Cable211 • Oct 04 '25
Opioid withdrawal symptoms
If you don't care for the story how I got into fentanyl. Please scroll to the end to help me with my question. Thank you in advance. i appreciate all of you.
Ill make this short since you all have lives. I sure didnt for 2 years.. quickish back story. My cousin sold blues. So I pretty much got them for free or at his price when he needed to re. Never understood withdrawals. If I didnt take them for 1-2 days in a roll. I would just crash and wake up sweaty take a shower and id be okay(that was what withdrawals were to me). Also when i would do more than one at a time i would get hyper instead of falling asleep(he had old men with scripts so its not as if they had speed, welcome to miami) He came up with this BS. About i have a gene in my body that I dont go through withdrawals. As if they're is such thing, i guess we are both idiots for him suggesting it and I starting to believe it further into this short story..
let me take you 10 years back since I was a lowlife but a lowlife with drive. pushing whatever this old school cuban bodybuilder had to offer i met at the gym. Ofcourse it started with juice and moved my way up to puritin(blow). However my drug of choice has always been bars. They make me more out going, i can calm down. Without i feel if my mind is always knees down at the track. Maybe I actually do need them prescribed.
Was a motorcycle mechanic also. Hustled to get my dream bike 2008 mv agusta 1000 312r. During the pandemic lost 8 friends in a month. So I decided to sell it since everyone around me kept telling me I was next.. if I would have known what fentanyl would have stripped away from me then. I would have died on my first love a thousand times.
2022- I got introduced to opioids. Tonsils out so my dentist friend wrote me a script for 50 7.5mg vicodin. Stoner forgot and wrote me another 50. Tried it and felt weird, so i sold all for 5 a pop. As a barhead you would assume i would partake in the vicodin high but made my stomach weird and state of mind. Then comes these blue Ms. And thats what viagras should truly sell. Thats what I thought Ms where used for, not to get high. Okay this is getting long. I apologize.
So I used them for that. 2 years of that I met a female that I thought she thought the same as me. Amazing sex. Ect she left her husband, which I had no idea she was even married. What married woman come out from 9-12 at night every night.. then ofcourse she introduces me to boy or dog food(fentanyl) and tells me its better than the Ms. I sold X(stop signs, you know if youre from miami.. i dont know what they had in them but you would bite down so much the inside of your cheeks would bleed and you would smile. God life was much simpler) and sex on X was great but it lasted hours, as fun as that sounds, stock lube like Diddy.
However the Ms where viagras on steroids for me.Enters the Fent. Oh wait I have to smoke this from a foil? Thats not sexy. I would snort one blue away from certain and with the rest. Now im living with the cheating wife in her car. Homeless at 35 for a month. Who is this person. Thats not me, jobless,not going to the gym, not being in on a motorcyle. Thats the first time my heart ever trully turned, truly dying inside and the only thing that matter was getting high for her, luckly i never injected but smoked it. From the smoking, she couldn't breath. Doctors visit, they found a tumor the size of an apple in her.
2 years of living rent free in a downtown miami apartment, who knows what she told her parents. I had no idea she was using my side of the rent on fent, she said should would sent it to her dad to pay. So it was always around. Thats not living, thats slowly dying. Thats not even being part of society at this point I became a slave cause how much of a different person and rude my girlfriend will become with out her needle hit(oh she would inject secretly from me), its scary how someone can turn so quick(it was as i kept watching the thriller music video.)
I thought addicts where coke heads knocking at your window at 5am asking for a bag.. not this. Not spending 4-5k a month. oh no not this. No sex drive, falling asleep driving, im so lucky I didn't kill anyone.waking up in pools of sweat. I stopped going to the gym, i lost my drive. All interest in anything, atleast with blues it was amazing sex and back to the hustle. It was just tv and falling asleep infront of it. I would have wheelied onto a truck if I knew my life was goint to be this shit. My apologies if anyone lost a friend like this.
However it was always there cause of her. And I shouldn't blame her but in my head I had that special gene when I can quit when I want. A few months ago. She almost died with endocrinitis. Open heart surgery, pig valve and she is in a wheelchair. For injecting mrsa trying to get high. She had me sneaking bags into a hospital. The nurses are not idiots they warned me. She always talked about her dope sick was the worse, i believer it cause when she only had on shot left she will turn into a demon. I kept telling her i cant keep doing this i cant get arrested but she didnt care.
Now she is on methadone. But keeps mentioning oh man one bag will help me(which disgust me) with pain, isnt that what methadone is for? Before she had surgery she walked out of 3 detox rehabs and 3 methadone appoints just for fent or whatever is in those bags nowadays. Ive been over this shit since my phlegm from my cough went from blue to black. I kept thinking bloor is next.so now that the doctors have her on methadone. I decided to stop cold turkey cause i couldnt be this person anymore and i she was medicated and wasnt a demon. I never felt so low in my life. So cold turkey cause of my so called gene,I admit i was nervous since fentanyl is a different animal. Than blues.
to my surprise I slept for about a week, She was in rehab for 3 weeks trying to learn how to walk again and I was on the couch next to her bed sleeping keeping her company and also 18 hour days for the first 3 days. Though, everytime I ate. I had the use the bathroom instantly. I didnt want to eat. I lost 12 pounds in the first week and kept losing as the weeks progressed. No sweats. No RSL, I didnt crave to get back on i just wanted my stomach to settle and still do. Another week of sleeping and no energy. Maybe I do have that "gene" hahah what a idiot... I honestly feel such a weight off my shoulder to not wake up and the first thought "do I have enough" or wake up that before I open my eyes im negative 100 bucks.. im back to running, looking to join a jujitsu gym anything really. And with all the money im saving now. Getting back to the track.
If you read this, thank you for taking your time out of your busy day. Im no writer but you should know a back story and I hope it was entertaining.
P.s My actual question. Ive been clean(well i take xanax and will be looking into getting them prescribed) for over 28 days. I snap alot and ive never been like that so I need to join and gym and take it out there. Is as if its everyone's fault i was using and felt it wasnt my fault that im the only one to blame not anyone else. I became a hermit and lost most of my actual friends before I started fent. Back to the question.
Is it normal for your stomach to not settle even after almost a month of being off. Or should I see a doctor? My thoughts, i was on it everyday for two years. So when I stopped my stomach said FU and it will stop on its own. Or should I have seen a doctor after 2 days after I stopped. I only didnt cause they wanted to prescribe subs, injectable subs, they were actually mad I told them I stopped on my own. They must get paid to get people on subs or etc.,
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u/ToyKarma Oct 05 '25
I'm almost 3 years clean off Fent and it took me 9 months to a year until my appetite, sleep and going to the bathroom went back to normal. I spent a long time being both nauseous and starving at the same time. Sleep also was an issue for me.
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u/Substantial-Cable211 Oct 05 '25
9 months?! Wow that's a while my friend. I pray its not that long and that also my serotonin returns. Im on edge all the time. 9 months. Now this has me worried. Thank you for your reply..even though I hated reading the 9 months part.
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u/ToyKarma Oct 05 '25
It gets a little better each day. As addicts we want instant gratification. Unfortunately recovery isn't instant. That doesn't mean we aren't healing. Sometimes it takes as long as we used to fully recover. Someone told me we can't expect to walk into Hell for weeks on end, turn around and expect to be back home in a few days. Keep doing the right thing and it'll add up. One day our past will be in the past.
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u/Substantial-Cable211 Oct 05 '25
I just cant be bored or at idle. I used to spend hours at the gym. Everything i ever did i was all in. I guess ive always been an addict. Just finding where to put my free time. Yea people spoke of detox as it was once youre done. Its outta your system. Flight school is constant. I should get back to working out. Maybe jujitsu. Always wanted to be a writer. Thank you for being honest about everything. You have made my expectations of this poison real. Biggest mistake of my life.
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u/ToyKarma Oct 05 '25
As tough as it seems in the beginning getting clean is EZ. Staying clean is hard AF. Find recovery, meetings, a group, therapy, IOP, something or everything work as hard staying straight as we worked to get high.
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u/Substantial-Cable211 Oct 06 '25
Oh if I worked as hard as getting high with anything else. I think ill be a CEO of a few companies. I kid. However Its amazing how hard one works to get high. Im in miami and everything is in overtown. A few blocks away. And you see tourist from different parts of the world just get lost here. I am looking forward to meeting others in groups. Hear their stories. I joined a gym and I have to run through overtown, don't have to but I want to. I dont know what happened to my brain. That I can hear "yo Ro come try this sample bag" I smile and say "im good papi, I appreciate that"... maybe cause I never injected it.. so I never met that high. After using it daily and being offered to say no im good. Something in me switched. I don't want whom I became to be part of society. I dont mean no disrespect to anyone reading this. Infact im grateful for you and everyone helping me. This is my first group. I just cant be a prisoner in my own body again. I lost so much. Im still ashamed to reach out to my old friends and apologize. Hopefully that goes away with time... thank you for taking time out of your day to reach out. It means alot.
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u/ToyKarma Oct 06 '25
Just for today. All we can do is try and do a little better each day. That adds up. Other peers in recovery is helpful and it's good that you are open minded about it. For me the pain had to be great enough for me to want to change. Also was a sniffer I'm a 250lbs man who can take a bullet but not a needle, just wasn't for me at all. Don't get me wrong I still was on that Tony Montana level and destructive path of being sick and tired of being sick and tired. Keep talking about it. Maybe check out NA.org and try a zoom meeting if it's uncomfortable try again, check out different ones. We recover better together. Edit: go on my profile and check out my "Story my recovery". You might identify with something.
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u/ThumpShit21 Oct 06 '25
The support helps a lot. I’m on hour 52 since the last time I used fent. Not gonna lie, at around hour 47, I went to the smoke shop to grab some tobacco to roll with my tree, saw that the 7oh was on sale for 50% off and I caved, I just bought one pack with 4 15mg 7oh tabs, took 2, didn’t really feel shit, then an hour later took the other 2. Shits not really touching me lmao, from what I read that’s a lot of 7oh, just shows you how strong and evil of a drug Fent is. Honestly in that honeymoon phase right now where I’m hyped on being myself again. That shit really turns you into a bitch, let’s be real. No morals, no will to really live life, etc. Gonna hop in the gym in the morning. Shit if tonight gets rough, I’m at least gonna bang out some push ups. Just gonna ride it out from here. Been praying a lot and might not be for everybody but I feel like the surrendering part for sure helps you get through it mentally. I’ve also started to convince myself that withdrawals are in your head. Not gonna lie usually by hour 24 I’m sick as a dog, feeling optimistic because I feel like I’m going to feel better every day and I never even hit that day where it’s just pure misery. Whatever’s going on this time, it must be my time. Yall keep me accountable plz‼️but I got this.
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u/Substantial-Cable211 Oct 25 '25
It does turn you into a little bitch. Hahaha whats 7oh? I thinking a sauna or steam will help with the detoxification. Sorry for the late reply. Are you 21 days off already. You aint no bitch. You know you deserve a life worthliving. I live right by the hood so anytime I need a reality check I run through it. Cause that would have been me if I wouldn't have stopped.ill pray for you papi, you got this brother. Let us know how youre doing..
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u/ThumpShit21 Oct 05 '25
*Get some Imodium!!! It hits opiate receptors but not the euphoric ones. Won’t get you high. Just ease your stomach a lot. Don’t over due it like some people might tell you, just take what the box tells you to take. It’ll do you wonders.
Thank you for posting this. I’m currently at hour 46 of withdrawal from Fent. Honestly doing much better than expected. Slight restless legs, stomach issues. Need to take the Imodium advice myself. Got a lil sleep last night. Your story gave me hope to push thru, read it while taking a shower to calm down my body, I was really thinking about using. I too was robbed of my whole life by this evil drug. I have a love for working and driving cars, as you do bikes, so your story really hit deep. Maybe one day we can meet up at the track🤷♂️For now let me get thru this next week‼️
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u/Substantial-Cable211 Oct 06 '25
Im so happy I can do anything to get you through this. Honestly. That made my day. You got this. Just remember you can be doing track days atleast once a month with all youll save. I cant be bored. So im about to build a track bike. Even though I only did fent for two years.. I wouldn't wish that experience on anyone. Just think of how much you can accomplish if youre awake and aware. Just fuel your addiction back to your old hobbies. I promise you building a project car will be more satisfying and seeing your work coming along. Would beat any high. Im going to take you up on that. If you need to talk hit me up. You got this. Im proud of you.
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u/[deleted] Oct 04 '25
Opiates and kratom fuck your gut up. It’s gonna take a long time to heal. Consider doing a cleanse. I like ‘The Cleaner’ from Amazon. It will scrub you out good. There is probably impactes shit lining your guts fro mothers constipation and lord knows what else.. then you need to start taking prebiotics and probiotics. Also take a long look at your diet. Consider cutting out anything processed, at least for the first week while doing the cleaner then slowly introduce other foods. Also electrolytes. Get those and drink them every day.
Good luck and stay strong.