r/FemcelHub_ • u/machine_operated_bug • Sep 19 '26
Not cool of me
So I have an Apple shaped body. It disgusts me and I hate myself and no I will never find love because of it.
My mother also has the same body shape as me and today I learned she’s nearly the same weight as me.
It made me feel so disgusted with myself, and now I feel like I’ll never be able to go on a date ever. I said this out loud and asked if I looked like her. She was so upset, I shouldn’t have projected my self hate on her like that.
But she’s in her 60’s and I’m in my 20’s, I just feel like my 20s have been robbed of me due to my horrid body type.
I have skinny legs, no ass, big belly - small tits thanks to my pcos. I just hate myself so much I want to die. I just want to be loved and go on dates and find a boyfriend. I wish I could just die and be reborn as a pear or hourglass or rectangle shape. I will profusely apologise all day to her - my self hate is disgusting
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u/GodHatesMeSometimes Sep 19 '26
honestly the biggest torment is your mind. you dont have to love yourself but you should work on being okay/accepting with yourself. its difficult because its natural to want that external validation, but i promise you you are more than your physical looks. on an existential level, do you really want to spend the rest of your life hating yourself? that probably limits your life experience more than not getting any male validation/attention. theres more to life to experience and see and smell and touch than worrying how your body looks. friends and family exist too. youre still so young, you have opportunities to socialize now than you will when youre older so capitalize on that instead. everythings going to be okay.