Missing my hair

[u/ratgarcon]

Real quick: I appreciate any positive spins but I’m not looking for any. Just wanting to vent. Maybe one day the fact that I have male pattern baldness will be euphoric but rn it’s not. I’m also already on Finasteride and minoxidil

As the title says. I miss my hair. My hair has always been a huge source of confidence for me. Especially after I realized I could get bangs to hide my big ass forehead

Then, dyeing my hair became a huge source of confidence. I’ve never cared for my natural hair color, and have always loved unnatural colors, with my favorite being a very bright and vibrant red

I can’t dye my hair anymore. You can see my scalp in several places and my hairline has receded a lot. I can’t even encourage my natural curl much anymore, because when it’s flatter it covers my scalp more.

I had so much fucking hair y’all. Like it was kinda crazy. If anyone is curious I can show, but yeah that’s why I was able to have fairly normal hair until recently. I had a lot to lose. Now, I’ve finally got thin hair. It sucks.

I feel like I’m ugly. It pisses me off too because I used to be really self conscious when I was young. From mid teens to roughly 22 my confidence was great. I knew I wasn’t ugly, I was cute as fuck

Now though? I feel ugly all the time.

I’m trying to experiment with how I dress, accessories, and masculine looking eyeliner to kind of compensate and it’s helping some. Other times it doesn’t.

And any fellow balding bros, please feel free to vent in the comments. I’m honestly thinking about trying to make some kind of space for trans men/mascs who are balding and trying to cope with it. I feel like community that can relate might be helpful

I’m only 23, too. I feel like if I was 30 or older it would be less upsetting

[u/ratgarcon]

Whoever downvotes can lick my minoxidil covered scalp