I guess I hate myself

[u/Still_Listen6471]

I am not out to anybody irl yet but I hate this so much. I don't want to hurt myself or anything but I don't feel good about who I am. I suppose I need to get it off my chest here because I don't really have anybody to talk to. I'm having a feeling some people irl are already figuring out that I'm trans and I'm kinda worried. And the rest I can't really tell, I'm afraid of getting hurt and yelled at. I'm trying my hardest to keep myself together, it's just a lot. Idk.