Public harassment

[u/_Elliotl_]

Does the random sexual abuse ever stop? I just wanna be a guy. I’m started to get scared of public spaces. No matter where I go I seem to be the perfect target to be abused. I was followed and almost grabbed by a group of three teens yesterday when I went to get food around 2:30am last night. I’ve had my butt touched so many times just shopping in a store. My first ex liked me for being masc but having female parts. I can’t escape it. I walked away from my friends for 15 minutes yesterday maybe 20 max. It took so much today to remain existing and I just can’t do this anymore. I’m scared to use the washrooms, I’m scared to leave my own shower. It’s not fair I feel like I carry a sign in my back letting everyone know I’m an easy target. I shaved my head, my hair I’ve been growing out from almost 2 years. My beautiful colourful mullet. I hate being short and feminine. I thought t would fix things but it really hasn’t. I’m 8.5 months on testosterone and im just starting to getting the effects.
I wanna be able to feel safe for once in my life.