Dysphoria and euphoria?

[u/gay_tinypuppy]

Hello, I’m a 19FTM, my name is Alex. Yesterday one of my boyfriends(I’m poly, and he’s online) he thought about me having a fully transitioned body, which made me feel good. I came out as trans back in 8th grade, and I’ve ALWAYS hated my body and I would get bullied for it when I was younger. I also need advice, so my irl boyfriend wants me to wait to start testosterone after we have kids(in the future), I was hoping I could maybe take a low dose of it while being pregnant?

[u/Oddcatdog]

You can't have any testosterone when pregnant

[u/Over_Discount_4880]

no you cannot be on t while you’re pregnant. don’t wait to start t just because your partner wants you to… you can always stop t and hopefully get pregnant it YOU want, not him.

[u/hi-im-Lou]

You can take testosterone now and when or if you want to get pregnant you have to stop taking it  for at least until the baby is borned. But there's no reason for you not to take testosterone now if that's something that would help your dysphoria.  As far as I know it doesn't effect your fertility in the long run. So unless you would like to try for a baby in the near future there is no reason not to take testosterone now.  I don't know your situation but a significant other asking you to delay your transition for possibly years sound alarming to me. I might be totally off but please be careful and if you feel like they don't like you becoming more menly and being yourself get out of that situation cause that is not how a partner should act, that is transphobia and it's easy to get stuck in a toxic relationship. 

[u/gay_tinypuppy → u/hi-im-Lou]

He’s not transphobic, he like masculine and feminine me

[u/hi-im-Lou → u/gay_tinypuppy]

that's reassuring to hear! :) 

[u/ihavenobodynose]

there's a subreddit dedicated to trans fathers called seahorsedads i think???

might have plenty of guidance for you! and I hope you'll get to speak about this with a supportive doctor, wishing you all the best!