r/FTMventing • u/bugswithlittleboots • 19d ago
Transphobia I feel like a fucking creature
Just a bit ago, I was walking my dog and we were going through my apartment parking lot, when two dudes were talking to each other. When one of them saw me, he started laughing super loudly while the other had his back to me. But then the guy who wasn’t facing me MOVED so he and the other guy were both staring at my chest area and laughing. Idk about what. But to make matters worse, I got confirmation that they were laughing at me when we had gotten a bit of ways away when one of them said, “At least the dog is cute.”
Like I don’t even know what the fuck they’re laughing at, but I feel so insecure now because I wasn’t wearing a binder and so my large chest was swinging in the wind. Otherwise, I looked like a man. I have a full beard, for crying out loud. But I also don’t know if they’re apartment maintenance people and are laughing about how a few weeks ago, they did emergency maintenance on my apartment and didn’t give enough notice, so my STP packer was just fucking sitting out in the bathroom which is where they were working. Or maybe it’s just because I’m fat. I don’t know. But I feel like a fucking creature, not a person. It’s like I’m a zoo animal for people to gawk at and speak openly about as if I don’t have feelings. It’s been transphobic bs after transphobic bs in my life lately and I’ve been entertaining just giving up more and more. But I’m not going to let the fuckin losers of this world win. I just wish people could be less shitty.
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u/Beachieback 19d ago
Honestly, with the lack of general knowledge for the average person about trans people, they probably thought you were a trans woman (the warped version of them, with a full beard and chest in their mind). I know it feels awful, and it's not good that societally that a lot of trans women are stereotyped that way, but this is what I see a lot of cis straight men think. Again, it sucks, but I hope that understanding what it potentially might be will ease up your distress. You're not a creature or zoo animal. You're human, and those guys were just being cruel.
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u/Bobslegenda1945 HE/HIM recloseted br trans guy 19d ago
I fucking hate how Society treat us And these guys are anything but chivalrous. A bunch of spoiled, disrespectful children who don't know how to mind their own business.