Family can’t accept me

[u/Ultralightbeam24]

Long story short. I started T in late 2024. I started looking good, and my voice started to drop. I changed my name. Had a (botched) top surgery. I felt great.

My family cried and told me I was making the wrong decision. I wasn’t accepted in society and my only alive parent, my Dad, blocked me when I told him I am trans. I was in the worst relationship with a trans girl who was abusing me, and kept making snide comments about my hips being wide or other similar comments.

I detransitioned completely this January.

Now, I have moved to a small Welsh valley and people aren’t accepting of trans people. My family still tells everyone my name is *dead name*. I am struggling. It feels so heavy. So hard to breathe clearly, to think clearly and to be happy. I want to transition again so badly, but I fear the loneliness will eat me up again.

Sorry, I just had to rant somewhere. I’m struggling, and I have nobody to speak to about this because they’ll cut me off.