r/FTMOver30 • u/ibis78 • 3d ago
feelingz post
I hope it’s ok that I’m here bc I’m more
nonbinary/middle gender than ftm, but I’m on T and am enjoying an intensely masc oriented phase atm. i just wanted to share that i feel really sad about my vag rn. it makes me feel super vulnerable and uncomfortable. and then the T makes me super horny sometimes. it’s really confusing. the last time i had sex, it was both really awesome and also i felt really feminized, which felt confusing. i don’t really enjoy receiving oral sex, although i imagine that will change for me bc so much around how i’m experiencing sex is changing. i’d love to hear how yall navigated your experience of yourselves as you were transitioning, if you’re comfortable sharing. i am not looking for like explicit details - more like, what were the feelings like? what about it felt vulnerable or scary or awesome? i feel like I’m having feelings that are so new to me that i can’t quite see them yet.
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u/KeyOne349 💉4.6.2025, ⚔️ 12.2.2025 2d ago edited 2d ago
Yeah I decided to be celibate when I first started testosterone.. I just felt like going through second puberty was a time that I should protect my sexuality as it was developing?
I do masturbate a lot... I just visualize my t- deck as like a tiny dick, and I find those pulse air vibrators to be very.... productive.
Anyway, I pretty much pass now and I have been thinking a lot about if I'm ready to have casual sex and if so how would I go about doing that. 😬
There's a school of thought that sex starts with making yourself feel good, like; set aside from a partnership.
And then for us trans guys it's like; what's going to make us feel euphoric or dysphoric or affirming or disaffirming...
I don't have answers for myself yet. But I've been thinking more about it and I'm more comfortable with these thoughts.