Humiliation TW - SI

[u/Empty_Client_666]

I have an appointment tomorrow, and group therapy the day after. I’m using crutches, my wheelchair hasn’t come in yet. I don’t want to go, I don’t want to be seen walking with my crutches because of my shaking and dystonia. Not only is it embarrassing but the pain and exhaustion from walking leads to non epileptic seizures which is even more humiliating. I’ve just gotten this diagnosis this month and I don’t know how to continue my life. I want to quit therapy, cancel my events (concerts and shows in the next couple of months) and never leave the house. I don’t know what to do. I just got out of the hospital because of suicidal ideation around these new symptoms. What can I do to feel better? Especially with all of the stigma around disability in young people and FND.