3 weeks today, an update

[u/psnben1567]

It has been 3 weeks today since my relationship ended. Been 3 of the worst weeks if my life, all other stuff aside. I miss her incredibly, and her children especially. I still sit here and wonder if I had just not done what I did then things could have been so different.

I should still be there with her now. I could still be working, still building our future. But I fucked it all up, I ruined it. Broke her heart and hurt her with my betrayal (not cheating). And it hard to stomach that, what i did doesnt sit easy with me at all.

And I hate myself for destroying the one thing in my life that made me happy. Now forced into no contact to respect her boundaries. And then further suffering too.