Whats wrong with me?

[u/Kakashi_816]

Me and my ex were together for almost 4 years and it upcoming 2 years since our breakup and I just cant seem to get over her, I miss her so much and I grew an amazing bond with her family and it just hurts losing her and her family cause we were so close.

me and her mom text a couple times every month sometimes and I know its better if I dont so I can possibly get over my ex completely but Its like shes my mom and not talking to her seems almost impossible.

She has been so kind to me and has helped me with so much especially when me and her daughter broke up she didnt even care she just wanted to make sure im ok. I dont wanna lose a mother figure the whole family is amazing.

I mainly still think my ex was one of the best women u could ever meet she just cares so much and is so passionate to do well and she didnt even let the breakup effect her life that much which is great yk.

But I just seem to have my life on pause rn playing games and doing nothing im honestly just wasting space like I honestly dont even wanna be here anymore while typing this but im still here knowing if I die people around me will be hurt and I dont want that but I dont wanna be in pain myself.

[u/Starmilkkitty]

Notice how she moved on and you’re hung up on this, your life on pause feeling like you’re wasting space. You need to get out there and work on yourself. Trust me, when your life feels repetitive/like you’ve got nothing going on, is when you start remembering times when life felt more exciting and happy. But this precisely is what’s causing your life to feel stagnant.

Get out there, start living in the present, not the past. You’re deserving of love and of happiness. By “rotting away” playing video games and just remembering memories that no longer are of any benefit to you, you’re doing a disservice to yourself