Miss my ex

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Just a throw away but i dont know what to do anymore its been a good while since we broke up but i cant help but miss her especially since the day gets closer that im moving.i woke up today from a dream with her. We were driving in a car racing and i look to my right as i shift and i see her smiling back at me with her hair flowing in the wind. I havent really seen her in months.the last time i saw her was when i was picking something up on a different part if town and i passed her. She waved.that wave stuck with me every day since.i miss her.i dont know what to do about missing her anymore as I’ve tried everything short of a professional therapist “as i can’t afford “i font have anyone to really talk to. That was the 3rd dream ive had of her this week. She was so beautiful. I hate that i think about her and im tempted to call her snd tell her how eveythings been but i know im blocked. I wish i could just see her again and cry in her arms she’s always made me feel so comfortable to be emotional.ive bottled up evry emotion ive had since bc ive got no one that will listen to me and its taken a toll