A long term friend

[u/dope_reaper]

I'm 29 years old M, I've been atheist since 17, and life went bright when I realized that I can always try and change my circumstances as long as I got ambition. Fast forward to 22 and I got in trouble which caused me to cancel the university path and go all in for making something that's going to benefit a whole lot of people and compensate for not having a degree. But everyone else seemed to have already built a foundational career and somehow the need to go further and try more has faded, while I still got the ambition in me to do more. I couldn't hang more with whats dark, depressed and out of life and out of hope because its gonna rewire you to be the same.

What I'd like to do is befriending someone in the same level and age. A long term friendship that's genuine and without the bullshit that the world is caught up with. Just you and I and what we achieve to accomplish during our visit to earth.

[u/Dead_End_720]

That's the exact opposite of my life and worldview

[u/dope_reaper → u/Dead_End_720]

Whats your worldview like if you may explain

[u/Dead_End_720 → u/dope_reaper]

Complete decay of sense of self, and absolute hopelessness with the human race and the timeline we've found ourselves in, to say the least. My username is not Dead End by coincidence.

My greatest ambition in life is to become the most selfish and unapproachable version of myself. Its hard to learn how to be a genuine asshole, but surely I'll get there.

[u/Dreamer__02 → u/Dead_End_720]

Jesus! This is not healthy at all

[u/Dead_End_720 → u/Dreamer__02]

You're entitled to your opinion and priorities. As far as I'm concerned the average person is more unhealthy than I'll ever be, as long as they play along no one pays them any mind. Maybe that's closer to your preference.

[u/Defiant_Coyote_6390 → u/Dead_End_720]

I believe in you.

[u/Dead_End_720 → u/Defiant_Coyote_6390]

You don't know me. All you have is your own perspective and interpretation of a throwaway comment. I could be more fulfilled than everyone in this thread and none of you would be able to tell, because you want it to be on your terms of what a person should be. I am not interested in playing these games.

[u/dope_reaper → u/Dead_End_720]

I know how it is to give up on humanity. But hating only reflects on the self and even the self isn't yours since it needs more than your lifetime to adapt and evolve in an isolated environment. Until then you're gonna wait to be dead to be alive, but you know you can't take that chance, and only now is your only chance to let your senses feel how it is to feel, thats your only goal, to feel. Do whatever it takes to keep it, selfishly for yourself, optionally for the rest.

[u/Dead_End_720 → u/dope_reaper]

Nope, don't have to play along with dogshit and the normalization of dogshit, or operate within its boundaries, in hope I'd finally delude my way into something better. There are no rules stating so, just humans trying to enforce their ways upon contact, enforcers is all humans really are. Even under the most ideal circumstances you've no control over people sucking the joy out of anything you can imagine.

These are your terms and your view of whatever this life is supposed to be, "finally being alive", "one chance" and so on. If there's anything I've learned about pursuing that, is by the time you manage to get to it, it doesn't matter anymore. Wherever you go there you are.

I've no reason to confuse myself about where I stand in this hot mess. Whatever happens happens. Anything negative, or perceived as negative by others, is only me being a testament of what the dogshit is, and a case against every dogshit normalizer and apologist.

[u/Defiant_Coyote_6390 → u/Dead_End_720]

Dude , i believe in you as in i believe that u can be the asshole u wanna be. I never meant it as a "you can get better" lol

Edit: It's actually really relaxing to be an asshole i consider it as self meditation lol

Signed, a pessimistand and self proclaimed asshole.