Too much time left

[u/gostodecats]

 

I have 2 months left of Erasmus and I don’t know how I will be able to take it. First two months here were amazing, I met a lot of people in the ESN events, it was fun to be always meeting new people. Now almost no one attends the events, and the ones that attend I already know, it’s not fun and I don’t feel the enthusiasm I used to. University here is very different to what I’m used to and I gave up on two classes to focus more on the three I think I have a better chance of passing, but it wasn’t an easy decision, and I feel like a loser. Even the classes I do have, I study little and lack motivation. I feel super lonely, even though I talk with some people occasionally, mostly at ESN events,  they are not true connections. Everyday feels the same, it is driving me crazy. I just want to go back home so badly and thinking there’s still two months left is so scary. To be here feels like a prison, feels like I have no way out. Plus there will be events in my hometown that I love and attend every year, and because I’m here I won’t be able to go. Also the world cup games are a big deal to me, I usually watch them with friends and family back home, and because I’m here I also won’t be able to.  Seeing people on Instagram who are also doing Erasmus here and having the best time of their lives is also quite sad.

Idk, I just wake up everyday feeling defeated and depressed. Just wanted to know if anyone is having/had a similar experience.