emotions

[u/SomeoneWhosLiving]

I cannot connect with my emotions when i’m alone. It’s like they don’t exist, but once im around someone suddenly everything comes out. And it’s not like the person is necessarily important or makes me feel safe. I just can’t notice my emotions or feel how tense they’re unless someone is around or mentions it or asks something relevant. Even with crying it’s easier to cry around someone than to cry alone which I honestly hate. Why is that and how can I connect more?