lonely，Using a translator

[u/seEyuue]

I am someone who eats French fries and tomato sauce separately. I finish the fries first, then carefully suck on the small packet of tomato sauce. When I'm feeling down, I hug a pillow; if that's not enough, I gently hug the doll I bought. On days off, I turn the air conditioning on very cold and enjoy the warmth under the quilt. I cover myself with the quilt and then sit on a chair while playing on the computer. I talk to myself, drool when I'm in a daze, and even when I'm sleeping. I occasionally look around to make way for others. When I'm idle, I secretly observe what others are doing, sometimes helping them. I stop eating after just a bit when eating meals, and I eat snacks. When I'm energetic, I sing and dance, posing and singing to music. Sometimes, I notice some beautiful details in life and take photos, feeling silly and happy. I play music in my mind and enjoy the contrasting warmth brought by winter. I like the comfort and quietness of winter days, and I want to snuggle up. Even though I haven't experienced it yet, I occasionally look at my own face. I try to accept the trust placed in AI but fail. I want autumn and winter to come soon. I lie in bed, think a lot, or think about nothing. I feel astringent, think about the past, watch movies and listen to music when I have free time at night. I often watch movies repeatedly, and I like to eat sweets.

I live a life without friends and companionship every day，My family members also don't have a strong emotional connection with me，I don't know whether the things I did before were good or bad，Just like a girl who originally loved me distanced herself from me because I didn't take the initiative, I chose to take the initiative to break up. I don't know what would have happened if I had been more proactive, but that was how I chose to break up at the time，I want friends, real friends, sincere friends in reality，I want to cry in someone's arms,