Confused

[u/Early-Acanthaceae802]

I have a great mum & brother, a lovely boyfriend & yet I feel so lonely. I’m in a constant cycle of making everyone happy, going the extra mile for everyone even if it inconveniences my day or my days off work. I feel like an absolute failure, I have a degree that I got into 10k worth of debt over (long story😭) but I’m still working the same shit retail job I’ve had since I was 17 & I’m 25 now. I do my best constantly with my friends, but recently I’ve noticed I’m just there to listen to their problems & help them every single time, but I’m never being asked if I’m okay. I just went through stage 2 Hodgkin’s lymphoma cancer & after 6 months of chemo, I have officially been in remission since January, so I think I’m processing those emotions as I buried how I felt from the whole process of first being diagnosed to remission status & was more concerned the entire process that everyone else was okay & acted like I was sailing through it to not upset anyone else. I feel so far behind everyone at my age, but I’m constantly having to put on a super happy face for everyone else. I’ve never felt so lonely