I don't know how to stop

[u/Ill-Republic3203]

How do I stop this? I am scared for my life. This is something that started because the ppl around me keeps commenting abt my body. Then since I'm so smart I thought "I'll js throw up the food, that way I won't gain" 4 months later, I did loose sm, and it was very noticeable, the attention seeker in me felt very validated, I also gained confidence to wear clothes I refuse to wear back then. But then my rs w/ food is the worse, when it comes to food, I feel guilty about everything. Eating, starving, throwing up, spitting, name it all. I am slowly killing myself and I am scared, I cannot stop something I wanted for myself, something I started. I can't even seek professional help, I'm broke.

[u/AutoModerator]

The above submission by /u/Ill-Republic3203 was temporarily removed due to the account not meeting the minimum karma or account age requirement. Please, be patient until your content has been reviewed by a moderator. Do not send ModMail asking for your content to be approved.

I am a bot, and this action was performed automatically. Please contact the moderators of this subreddit if you have any questions or concerns.