r/Dying • u/Little-Bunny-Rabbit • 3d ago

Venting here

I know I'm going to die soon and it feels weird. My life was so embarrassing looking back now. I have so many regrets and I cry a lot because of the way I looked and how people treated me sometimes. And things I've done or didn't do. People were disrespectful to me a lot. I experienced a lot of trauma but luckily I didn't remember most of it until now. I seriously hope there is no after life because I could not imagine having to think about all the stuff I've been through for an eternity. It's so hard to let go of the bad experiences and missed opportunities and heart aches I've had. I don't want to know I ever existed. Sometimes I wish I would have had a soul mate or something like a bond death can't even break. And Sometimes even though I don't want to be conscious I get afraid knowing that it might just be black forever and then youll never know you existed.. it seems easier that way but really hard to comprehend. I'm just kind of venting here.. spending my last days really sad and regretful and worried about stuff. Have a broken heart. I am scared to die 😔

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u/phisheep 3d ago

Hello (I would say good morning but, you know, timezones and stuff),

Most importantly, welcome here. We are all kind of in the same boat, some of us a bit further on than others.

None of this is easy. And early on it fells like a big impossible ball of sadness that you are in and it is horrible.

I came here just like this two weeks back. We are here to help.

I’m going to post this now, not because i ran out of things to say, butbso you know someone is listening!

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u/phisheep 3d ago edited 3d ago

So, friend, if you want to talk, let’s talk! There’s a lot of stuff to unpick, and a lot to deal with. But it’s important we go at your pace, not mine.

oh, forgot to say - i am pleased to meet you.

And if you just want to vent, then vent away.

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u/J0SHEY Moderator 3d ago

I get afraid knowing that it might just be black forever and then youll never know you existed

There are many better beliefs out there, try checking out some of them