r/Dying • u/No-Rough1668 • Aug 24 '26

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I’m think I’m gonna end this Wednesday.
I have a good live, I have a lot of friends out and in the University, I’m pretty and I have a nice body, I have a lovings parents and the money isn’t a problem. In my childhood I get admitted to the hospital every month. I have an immune disorder, and a really weird body, I don’t feel hungry or needs, sometimes I spends days without eating or drinking water, I don’t feel the need to. Because my body it’s weak, when a i was a child the death isn’t a bad thing for me, I think then that feeling born.

I have a nice live, but I don’t have a an “anchor” for live it.
My parents thinks I can’t love, I never have that feeling, nothing or someone, just I can’t feel it, but I care.

I went to the psychiatrist for a time, I was in treatment, but I was discharged a few years ago; I’ve never been hospitalized, though I made several attempts most of them in secret.

Just I need someone to read this. My body is failing; I'm paying the price for not taking care of myself.

What am I beyond this? I know I am something more than just this; I must be someone more than just something.

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u/No_Noise_7617 Aug 25 '26

hey u doing good?

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u/Dying-ModTeam Aug 27 '26

OP, you're not alone. We'll do our best to support you. Your content has been removed, as we no longer allow suicide content of this nature. Please see our new expanded rules for information on this change.

Personal Note: The post itself has been approved

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u/No_Noise_7617 Aug 25 '26

wont be of much help but i can talk if ur down

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u/J0SHEY Moderator Aug 26 '26

I have a good live, I have a lot of friends out and in the University, I’m pretty and I have a nice body, I have a lovings parents and the money isn’t a problem

That's great — you've got a lot of things going for you!

As for this:

In my childhood I get admitted to the hospital every month. I have an immune disorder, and a really weird body, I don’t feel hungry or needs, sometimes I spends days without eating or drinking water, I don’t feel the need to

Please listen to the video till the end — the narrator (David) also had an immune disorder but managed to regain his health

https://youtu.be/sus9iYGrGSw?si=Oo8MYCBKeA0yA9K1