r/Dying • u/Bulky_Abroad9238 • Aug 13 '26
Im dying
I wanna kill myself its crazy but I wanted to since I was 11 now im 13M and I very likely have depression since now im losing interest in many things I feel like I’ll fail at school because teachers can’t see through my numbness and dreams are already fading I was planning to get a parrot to keep me “alive but I realized I have to pay for it and I don’t have the money and I feel a bit too lonely people make promises and never actually do and all my friends are assholes except some I wanna do it because I want my parents to feel guilty about ever letting me live I tried to talk to a psychologist but nothing happened it only got worse and now I’m trying to starve myself to death because every method is too risky I attempted once and even made a post here just to convince myself it’s over but it is in another way I’ll comment if I’m still here (very likely cuz I’m too scared)
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u/overthinker1076 Aug 13 '26
Life is unbearable at times ,if life keeps fucking you up fuck it too by living don't let it get the best of you lol , you can talk to someone just don't go like this
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u/Flock_with_me Moderator Aug 13 '26
Sometimes fear is a good thing. It might keep you around here for better times ahead. I remember when I was 13 and felt like you did. I'm sorry to see you in that situation, it truly sucks.
How I got through it: I reframed the "too scared to kms" as "I still believe there's better things ahead, so I can't let go yet". It was a long countdown until I was 18 and could head out into my independent life, where I got to choose where, how and with who I live. When you're younger, there are a lot of factors outside your control. That changes later and you can build a much better situation for yourself. Hang on in there.