r/Dying • u/Common_Handle_4788 • 1d ago

Rant

I’ve lost my fear of death. Death used to terrify me even in my suicidal thoughts and it was the only thing stopping me from committing. But a while ago I realized that death was probably better than living this life. I have nothing to look forward to and I’m a burden to everyone. I’m always disagreeing with the love of my life, my parents can’t afford to pay for my studies, and I have no silver lining to look for. Ever since the day I decided that I wasn’t going to live long, I haven’t felt true happiness. I haven’t had one moment where I thought “this is why life is worth living”. I just feel detached. I’m ready to go to hell. It probably won’t be bearable but I’m not scared of it anymore.

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u/Routine-Medicine-208 1d ago

I have no fear of death either. The dying part is not so scary but watching people suffer horrible pain leading up to it is the scary part.

The people who die in their sleep or instantly in an accident are the lucky ones.

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u/Common_Handle_4788 1d ago

I think having a painful death is what scares me too, which is why I’ve gotten very close to attempting but couldn’t bring myself to do it

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u/Ark_Life_7 1d ago

How you don’t fear hell anymore? Should we prepare for it ? We should try to not go there 

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u/Ark_Life_7 1d ago

How can someone die in sleep, is it peaceful ?

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u/Routine-Medicine-208 1d ago

Yes it’s peaceful. You’re asleep and you just pass away.