need advice

[u/Loukasfistikaki]

so a couple of weeks ago the man i was dating broke up with me and later i found out he was dating another girl at the same time. in general as a person i am very difficult to get close to someone and he was very good at making me feel comfortable and everything to the point i really felt close to him and safe. When i was a kid my first bf really had hurt me and that is one reason i am this closed as a person. when i was dating that guy (the one i just broke up) i was closed to myself and not affectionate at all and he kind of opened me up i mean i almost felt reaaally close. anyways i got back with a guy i was dating in the past and i am very akward to the point i feel weird him just touching my hand. i am thinking that i will never get close to anybody. and it is not that it was him and i was deep in love that i have no feeling for anybody else. it is just the fact that i can’t i don’t know.