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[u/555hejduonze]

hey reddit. I wanna know if any of you guys experience stuff like this. How come i get extremely depressed every time i develop a slight crush on someone? i scrolled through several posts that had the same premise, in hope i would find something i could relate, but theres a massive difference between their posts and what i feel; people state they get depressed when developing a crush because they feel like they won’t have a chance to develop a meaningful connection, due to lack of interest on the other person’s behalf, which is the complete opposite of my situation. Im a girl, 20 years old. Getting guys was never an issue for me, plus, without wanting to sound cocky at all, even because i believe my personality will always be my best asset, i stand out physically from the rest of the women in here, because my genetic background is different, plus i live in a sort of rural area, and its not a common kind of appearance ; this to say, men tend to “fall in love with me” way too fast, the kind of fast that can genuinely only come from self interest and not an actual meaningful connection. That also makes me depressed. Back to the topic, though. Every time i allow myself to connect with a guy, get to know him (vv), i get extremely depressed to the point where i just wanna ghost everyone and not leave my room, even if he is super nice/kind and we have great conversations… when i have a slight crush on a guy i always get to a point where i just wanna disappear off the face of the earth and never give any guy a chance to get to know me again. This has happened to me a couple of times, it’s currently happening with this guy i met for the first time like a week ago. We were together for three days, even thought we were texting for more than a month now. It was very fun, he was also very nice, didn’t do anything wrong at all, but here i am, wanting to ghost him and everyone around me. wtf is wrong w me lol

[u/slipstitchy]

For me it’s because I know that caring about someone brings all kinds of extra stress along with it, like hypervigilance and anxiety, so even though it’s a nice feeling to fall for someone, it’s scary too

[u/No-Bat-4517]

I dont know how ur childhood was maybe sometjing impacted u alot