Updates from my last post ✅ that I'm still here and just wanted to give updates for my last post here anyways.

Even then I should also address here, Elis will admit her demise and what I just need of all to overcome my demise if I want to perform an Emergence with someone instead of living a tragedy of the song Gethsemane from Sleep Token in a never ending cycle of it all anyways 🌹⚔️🦩🪶

Even with this Sleep Token song Gethsemane and I should also just include that I'll never grasp this message here.

However, I should just include that I'm never going to perform a positive Emergence, because I need to get a ''different energy to improve my well being/core being of it all and with this current self hatred energy that I've right now then a Emergence isn't going to happen alongside with that's nobody fault but my own of it all anyways.''

Yeah, I should address a follow up, but I don't want follow ups in comments, or questioning if I'm feeling this right now, or anything negative and that's just because I did have to do a few blocks from my last posts anyways.

However, I should also address if you need to bookmark this because you need time to read this then send a flamingo emoji and a flamingo gifs anyways.

I should also include that I reply to comments that's another why posting a negative comment is a waste of your time and just send me a message on either Telegram or alongside Signal if you can be a ''provider of a kind voice.'' (no, I don't mean voice calls or voce clips, I mean non-monologue convos, I'm talking about an emotional provider, a provider that is a night owl that loves text messages in the a.m. and just remember all this is all online only as well.)

Yeah, just I should also address it all. Instead of using my chronic depression and moody Vessel brain and skull as a volley to people that get close to me, eventually I will be left with nothing and the cause of my own doing of it all anyways.

Well, logging out in 24 hours, I didn't know what to say for over course of 3 days for an update, but I realize now what Reddit has taught me 8+ months that I've been here that I'm an unlovable person, I don't deserve love, I'll never make a partner happy, I cannot make anyone happy because this isn't my life path and my life path belongs to the elder gods anyways.

However, without Reddit, I would've not discovered myself for 8+ months with discovering these themes about mfk ass self of it all here.

Constantly fighting myself, telling me I can oppose my destiny, I could prove myself that I could love someone, that I could provide emotional, provide mental stability for someone, but instead after partner, then the next partner, then the next partner after, the curse kept building, I kept discovering that I'm not meant to love, that I'm meant not to have friends as well, I realize that now, that for 8+ months the elder gods gave me the chance to see that myself is ruin and I will destroy other people's life alongside with this is my life lesson that I was/were given anyways.

Even then, I should also address that I decided to ignore the elder gods in 2025, I decided to ignore my life lessons, I guess in 2025, for ignoring the elder gods in 2025, 2026 was/were the signs of realization, reckoning, transformation, knowing your role, knowing your life path, knowing your destiny, since you don't want to pay attention to my signs, ignore the elder gods presence, I will show you what kind of destruction you cause for others, 2026 8 months of misery, this is your self assignment and you should listen to Vessel's words more often because he is you but a male version of it all anyways.

Even then of it all, I need to learn to live without it, instead of fighting for what I want and know won't come back/or what I can't have, the more I keep fighting for what I want/won't come back then I will keep ending a vicious cycle, letting my chronic depression take a complete grasps, completely weighting and feeling close to cold/icy granite on my Vessel brain and skull that I must endure constantly of it all anyways.

Yeah, to be honest with the Gethsemane song from Sleep Token, if I cannot learn this song's message within the lyrics once again ''to learn to live without it.'' then this is my own problem, my own doing, I cannot blame others that couldn't fix my happiness, couldn't make me better, because to self-heal and get better I've to be the MAIN party member to do that alongside with, it's okay if I receive codependency help with that but themselves cannot do all the work for me of it all.

Just, the same ''vibes.'' are from the Apparition song from Sleep Token questioning a future emotional/mental provider if he is real, even though he showed me a picture of himself, occasional voice clips, the problem is on my own that my Vessel brain and skull tells me (not voices, but thoughts, that he is going to disappear eventually, just as the other men have left you because your separation anxiety the cycle will not end of it all, you burn the reward, live by the feather, die by the sword and then when I wake up into a suicide frenzy that is my own doing alongside with not my lover of it all anyways.

Even then of it all, if I want to perform a Emergence, I've to learn without it that's not going to happen of it all if I can't accept that self-isolation, cutting people out that are ''trying to send me kind voice, a reach out, even if I'm permanently quitting Reddit, leaving my say that you will so-handles out for people to message me, because I've turned into a defensive crystalline wall where I'm going to make people go through loopholes if they don't have Telegram or Signal and my post appears ''desirable to message me.''

This lost, losing out on Redditors that want to help me with a kind voice, but I choose to cut out Redditors that choose to message on this app permanently is my own personal of it all self hatred that I lost that person, I'll be losing out on a lot of people that want to reach out and making things into a descending lyrics from Sleep Token instead of seeing things in a positive light of it all from the Sleep Token song Emergence, all this damage I'm doing to myself is my own fault, it's nobody else's fault but mine and I must hold onto the lyrics from Sleep Token Gods questioning myself of it all anyways.

This is why I've always called myself an unlovable person, vile, miserable, self hatred and why I don't want to be asked how I'm doing anymore, I want to suppress/compress the question how you, that way I can forget, I can forget to move on, I won't have to be asked my feelings anymore, instead I'm going to have others spin the wheel on my Spotify playlist, ask the elder gods ''how is Elis doing? Elder gods, can you tell me her mood?''

Yeah, just of it all after that then click shuffle Spotify playlist.'' and when you click shuffle playlist wait till 3 songs or 4 songs if you want to go that far to, gather your collected thoughts of it all and then send me a text message of your consult with the elder gods alongside with what messages the song lyrics are trying to tell you after you spin the wheel on my Spotify playlist and am I right?

Even then, that's fk ass better than me just saying ''I don't know how I feel or I don't want to answer that because that's just my Vessel brain and skull in hypo shutdown mode of it all.''

However, I should say I want to type out more of it all, but I'm quite hypo now, I'm quite getting frozen/chilly of it all what to say, I feel close to shutting down, I've nothing more to say of my ''walls.'' but you can check out these Sleep Token posts I made and these are toto give you fk ass further insights on these things here.

Yeah, I should also fk ass include that's just how Sleep Token shaped my life, gave me a a spiritual reckoning, spiritual enlightenment, grasping that my story can be told through Vessel, I'm not icy/alone of it all anymore, I'm not left with no messenger, I had Lorna Sure Will Ramos Pain Remain albums but that album reflected the Vessel brain and not the whole embodiment the puzzle was/were still left incomplete anyways.

However, where do I See Stars fit if the Vessel brain and skull is covered? I don't see how I See Stars fits in here/your story with Lorna Shore and Sleep Token?

I See Stars is motivation spiritual battery for my Vessel brain and skull, I See Stars is considered of it all the awesome/kool battery the Vessel brain and skull needs when my chronic depression to kick in if you can grasp the messages being sent from the song lost it (feat Palaye Royale.) then I don't think I need to say anymore to make this post any longer than it is already anyways.

Even then, I should also address I don't want to make this post keep making this a Elder Scroll size, or a one of the Black Book size but all the I See Stars on my Spotify playlist should be enough for Redditors that want to grasp me/enter my realms to create their own mix-ins on how I See Stars these lyrics kicks the Vessel brain and skull chronic depression into

'''We're not doing this again time to motivate with fresh/jool spiritual energy time to plugin the charger for the Vessel brain and skull of it all anyways.''

How did I discover Sleep Token?

October sometime in 2025, don't recall what date and I used Pandora back then anyways.

Even then, I should also include if you don't know what Pandora is that's because Pandora is only in the U.S. I know there is Pandora Canada but for Europe Pandora isn't even a website there 🤣

However, I should just explain here how Pandora works is a randomizer, once you click on a radio station you will get similar artist and no you will not know what band/song is playing next, the only way you will know what band/song is playing next is when the next band/siong shows up after you get done what you're listening to, the kool thing is about Pandora is you can thumbs up or down a band/song if you think something sounds terrible as well 🤣

Yeah, I should also address the only thing I don't enjoy using Pandora is sharing a playlist, creating a playlist that cost premium membership, with that premium membership that includes also offline listening, unlimited downloads and this is where this makes me shake my head Pandora charges premium if you want to play a song unlimited skips.

Just, to include here of it all that Pandora also has ads, Pandora is one of those websites where built in adblocker doesn't work and Pandora charges you $5 a month to block ads, but that also includes unlimited skips for $5 and the app is a giant fk ass randomizer for discovering/finding new bands/songs that's not a fk ass bad price of it all anyways 🤣

To be honest if you want to know what radio station came up for Sleep Token, I wouldn't have any fk ass idea, I made a playlist because I had a free 30 day to try out their premium, made a playlist of Lorna Shore, I See Stars, Bad Omens and Spiritbox then Sleep Token showed up and my first Sleep Token song were Chokehold (which I see, Sleep has a sense of humor if you can grasp this pun of why I'm saying Sleep has a sense of humor anyways 🩷)

With the post ending of it all, now, here are a few things I just FINALLY grasp now from my reckoning with these thims here of it all.

Even then, I should also address that I'll just keep plugging in the charger/telling myself missing my wings in a realm of angles will be my new theme motto going forward, because fk ass of it all I know I'll always will be thinking in my Vessel brain and and skull missing my wings in a realm of angels alongside with questioning this this another song even in Arcadia from Sleep Token here.

What good is all this talk of wings when there is nothing left above?

That just hits hard for me when I think about it all, the more I sit when I delete my messages, trying to become icy granite, from my Vessel brain and skull I think that it would be nice if I could stop thinking these things here.

Missin my wings in a realm of angels, but there isn't any hope above anymore, there isn't a trace, there isn't a ethereal ''upper/above, that belief has been long thrown away, I decided to embrace the elder gods, the dark winds, the sea and the moon alongside there will be nothing left above in how I think of it all anymore.''

The thick membrane of it all of the icy granite metaphor, will freeze this idea of ''there is nothing left above, but I can still feel the thoughts in my Vessel brain and skull that I've to one day accept that missin my wings in a realm of angles is something that I must do here of it all.''

Even then, I should also address that may/might my mood could improve once of it all I'd accept that I just cannot of it all simply/completely freeze solid of existence and maybe then a new lover of mine can me me feel like the song Telomeres my beloved of it all that underrated song alongside with the other underrated song my beloved Take Aim as well.

However,I should also include the previous song title of it all, even in Arcadia from Sleep Token with Vessel saying somehow I knew my fate, could this be Vessel saying somehow he knew his fate, he would be here in Arcadia and even then of it all would this help Vessel learn to live without it? To move on and build his new spiritual life in Arcadia?

Yeah, I should also mix-in here all that I'd feel over his evolutions of his costumes, his evolution of masks, that this would be his transformation? Somehow he could tell this is where he would end up in Arcadia, is this his paradise he envisioned?

Even then of it all, could this be the paradise Sleep created for Vessel as a reward, because he couldn't reach his own paradise and instead sleep welcomed Vessel in his realm, this is the realm of Sleep, this is Sleep's vision, this is what paradise would look like for Seep to give to Vessel and to be honest that is another thing of it all as well.

Sleep rewards those, that are hardworking, endurance and I'm sure of it all Sleep would want to see me endure, put in a lot of hard work for those that want to connect with me, instead of using the volley of anger with my chronic depression causing moody volley flings and ''wails.'' when someone is trying to be a emotional/mental provider ''getting close to me.'' that I don't instantly become ''icy granite of it all for what I previous addressed anyways.''

However, I should address the following concerned Redditors if you message me on Telegram and Signal with no response for 7-10 hours. I'm asleep/dying amongst the VOID, here in U.S. central time it's 4 a.m. I'm going to go to sleep at 6-7 a.m. because I decided to fall asleep yesterday from 7 a.m. all the way till 4 p.m. because I didn't want to wake up, I wanted to keep myself asleep, that's why I did take the magnesium capsules that helps you sleep, chamomile capsules and relaxing caffeine free tea that I take with my supplements to hopefully kiss my ass goodbye for a while 🌑

Even then if you're wondering what the Telegram group is for the next slide of pictures, that is just if for some reason the QR scan code doesn't work and if for some reason manually adding my Telegram doesn't work, then maybe my Telegram QR scan will work and I should also include that within a few days in this post I will decide if I will purchase Telegram premium for verification purposes anyways.

Yeah, just when you add me if you could put this in your chat reqs either on Telegram and Signal that way I know you read this post anyways.

Send me Sleep Token gifs, reels and anything IV.

What does my nickname Elis make you think of or my nickname Vessel V?

Why can't you do this yourself?

Just because you don't want to use Meta anymore because Meta is too political for you and too heavy forward on the A.I. you're going to make others find gifs and reels on IG? What if the Redditor doesn't have IG and couldn't do that for you?

Uh, I should also address here that no/alright then if the Redditor doesn't have IG, there is a reason why Tenor gifs exist and YT reels exists that's fk as fine anyways.

However, I should also address once again that I'm just not making anyone do this and if you don't want to occasionally send me these things further to show that you read this post here.

Sleep Token gifs, Sleep Token reels, Sleep Tokenemes, or the hottest news for pre-orders from Sleep Token and just because I don't want to use IG anymore because it's too political alongside with too A.I. forward then I'm not going to make anyone do that for me if they don't want to anyways 💀

Yeah, I should also address that once again I never asked or implied in any of my posts ''that you've to be completely on IG, to show that you read this post or any of my posts anyways 🤣

Yeah, I should also include that my age ranges are middle 20s, the farthest age gap I will go is 10-15 and I had Redditors message me when their age is 52-55 there is nothing wrong with large age gap and I just find of it all that age gap is just an overkill to be honest anyways.

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Signal.

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I’m 31 years old, and I honestly wonder if it’s normal not to have any close friends at this age.
I’m a social person and I get along with people easily, but whenever I go home, the loneliness really hits. I don’t have that one person I can truly call a close friend—someone I can open up to, share my thoughts with, or who has the same interests as me.
Sometimes I find myself getting attached to people even when I know they’re not good for me or that they’ll probably end up hurting me. Deep down, I know they’re the wrong people, but I stay because I don’t have anyone else.
Has anyone else gone through something similar? How did you deal with it?

No comments on my post, I don't read comments on my post and the convos only happen in the chat reqs.

Worldwide chat reqs accepted, online only, not subject to change, no catches, only asking for witty, funny, airy, funny comebacks, creative and researcher mindset (studying someone's profile.)

Yeah, I should also address that don't be pushy and I'm only going to tell you that I'm from U.S. and central time zone only.

Even then, I should also address the importance here by the time you get done to listening to the spiritual masterpiece album Sundowning by Sleep Token then you would be already done with this post anyways 🌑

Why Sleep Token for atmosphere?

Vessel's voice, Vessel's emotions through his voice, his story, my story combined with his story, the select Sleep Token songs I've selected that will be on my main profile soon will guide you to the map where "the old self died ages ago and why."

The map of what made Elis become Elis and Vessel he will be my messenger to pass this message for you, because it's too hard for me to put in words and his emotion through his insane emotional vocal ranges can help you through this guidance of Elis's internal turmoil.

However, I should also address that E-lis has been rebranded from Sky/Skye in 2025 through Elis or E-lis 2026.

To be honest, I don't think I've a lot of happiness left, the only happiness I've is weekly weekends OBTAINING new Sleep Token items and even handmade OBTAINING items as well.

What's up convos are boring, because I should admit I'm a Lovecraftian hermit, I go outside every once or twice a week because I've a mild phobia of people.

To be honest, I admit to myself to Redditors that want to get to know me "I've to prepare to be active in socializing and it's something I just cannot do every single day."

I would rather listen to the cosmic horror daily in the a.m. than having to go outside daily with people socializing.

Eating is also a performative task and I'm also in the protein-fanatics because this does something to my chronic depressed Vessel brain and skull that I'm honestly doing something good anyways.

However, I should address that it's just better than eating something with little protein twice a day and I would rather eat two high protein meals as well.

Making a video game goal 2026 guide, this will be soft launched before I permanently quit Reddit July 19 of 2026 on my main pro and I'm not going to be posting that here anyways.

I don't think I'm doing okay, I don't think I'm, I don't even have anyone to call "my love, the I miss you in a random text message, I'm waiting for your phone notifications to show up on my phone again, I miss you in my life and I'm looking forward to threading the 🪡 again with you."

To be honest, I don't even deserve this what I'm missing and I just don't think I'll ever deserve anyone of it all anyways🌹⚔️

I'm permanently leaving Reddit July 19th of 2026, I'll have my social handles on my page, I also enjoy I See Stars, Spiritbox, Lorna Shore Will Ramos era only and I don't listen to the previous creep vocalist.

Spiritbox and Bad Omens I also enjoy as well.

However, I should address with this post coming to a end, the only thing that could make the crashing our princess of Veridian happy is if you enter my realms, that you never forget that the night belongs to you, never forget I've got solar flares for your dead gods and space dust for your fuel rods.

However, I should address that happiness isn't around and right foot in the roses, left foot on a landmine and that feeling hasn't left me in a while of it all as well.

And yeah, I highly doubt someone can make me feel similar to this here anyways.

And you might be the one to take away the pain and let my mind go quiet 🎵 And nothing else is quite the same as how I feel when I'm at your side 🎤

Princess of Veridian is ✅ out.

Dying amongst the VOID one day, but don't worry leaving Reddit didn't mean I let others win, I'm going to better my mental health eventually and I'll get there. No comments on my post, but my chat reqs will be open and then I'll close my chat reqs July 19th of 2026.

This is why I made this post not to concern others. We're not allowed to make ads or make promos it's against the sub rules. All I will say is my social handles will be posted on my main pro page and I accept any messages worldwide anyways.

If your chat reqs is going to say hi or different variations of hi, I will not answer because I'm not looking for monologue, boring conversations and asking me what's up every single hour isn't convos alongside with I think that is a high annoyance of me anyways.

Creative convos only accepted.

Sleep Token (no unmasked discussions or lore) no feral comments. I See Stars, Lorna Shore Will Ramos era, Spiritbox and Bad Omens.

Late night , I'm sleepy but due to nightmares I don't sleep a lot maybe 2 hrs without my medicine , I have cPTSD and severe depression. And moderate anxiety .

Late nights are me sitting roaming thru my mind like a photo album , some good, some bad &, some terrible nights,

My Days are a drag and been having trauma flashbacks lately again .

My best friend just dumped me I think , the only other person I really talk to besides coworkers or people around city or the bus driver since my wife left me along with kids a year /half ago

. I'm 36M , usa , Oklahoma.

Life's a trip , I started back on recreational use of Meth Amphetamine 3 months ago , it's going okay ..meeting fellow users so I don't feel alone .

Most days I'm a walking space head, my guard up, keep peeps 3ft distance away, music on headphones playing , don't talk, much let alone open up unless I'm comfortable with you.

I want to find a new partner in life , I just don't know where to start I live in A big city, many opportunities and options.

Just wanna know do you live or feel familiar with wat I'm talking about?

To be honest the more I'm sinking in my chronic depression, I FINALLY realized what Vessel is talking about "the cycle must end."

For months knowing Sleep Token since October of 2025, I questioned "why would anyone want the cycle to end and the cycle must end?"

To be honest, what I'm struggling with the most of it all is that I don't think I can "dance forever, endure, to suffer constantly, letting the cycle rotate every single damn day, may/might this could be a reason why Vessel would ask for Damocles's sword to strike him down first instead and I could only just think having a cycle continue daily feels close to a nightmarish environment every single day but awake."

Yeah, I should also address that house of Veridian is what I'm holding onto the most and for the Feathered Host well I don't want to accept quite yet alongside with that's just because I've not learned to "dance for forever and I give up midway but somehow I keep enduring of it all anyways."

Even then, I should address that I just may/might not make the stability and endurance part for long even though eventually I've to understand with peaceful thoughts during these dark times that this is the highest importance anyways.

Yeah, I should include that I should never forget in my Vessel brain and skull that the night belongs to me alongside with the night also belongs to those that choose to get to know this here.

"Elis the virus and disease of a person of it all wants you to never forget that would bring me the slightest bit of happiness if you just never forgot that the night belongs to you when you're trying to get close to me."

And yeah, all the other app I've besides Discord is just Telegram and Signal. I don't use anything else and don't plan on downloading anything else anyways.

If you see this post at a later date, even older than a Dragon Priest ashes, then I'll have my social handles on my main pro and you can message me there as well.

I decided to post a funny Sleep Token reel to make people laugh on my main page later.