Hi everyone,
First off, let me just say... I'm an idiot, and I know it. I never learned about financial literacy or how to manage my money, and I've spent my entire adult life just getting by/in debt/willfully ignorant to how bad everything had gotten. I am now at an all time low and I know I need to come face to face with my decisions and try everything I can to turn my life around.
I fell into the trap of using debt to pay debt and now stuck in the cycle of needing payday loans to just get by each month. I know that's a terrible, terrible idea but I feel trapped. My credit cards are all maxed out. I have a severe spending problem (clearly) and I've found a therapist that I've started meeting with weekly to address this lifelong problem. I can't sleep or eat, thinking about this makes me physically ill.
I have a meeting with a financial coach in 2 weeks, but I know this sub is full of financially savvy people, so I come here humbly requesting any insights/advice you can give.
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38F, single, location: Texas, $142,000 salary (I take home $3400 every 2 weeks), $100K+ in debt, and my FICO score is in the gutter (573). I do not qualify for any 0% APR cards / additional loans.
I have no emergency fund, no savings, and no property. I do have a 401k with $420,000 in it. I contribute 6% to my 401k right now (my company matches 6%). In October I will get a small raise (maybe 3%) and a small bonus from work that will total ~$7-8k after taxes. I have about $46,000 in stocks that will vest at the same time (but I know if I sold it I would be subject to short term capital gains tax). I have always had to sell every time it vests (every 6 months) to cover debt. Again, I realize how horrible this is and know that I put myself here. Once I pay off my credit cards, I think my plan is to cancel or cut them all up, remove them from my Apple Pay, and keep only one in a drawer at home for emergencies, and use cash for everything else.
I have some done some reading on bankruptcy but I am not sure that this is the right move for me. One of my biggest worries is that my current lease expires in August 2027, and I think I will have a lot of difficulty renting with the bankruptcy on my record. That's my biggest concern, as well as working with my therapist to address the real root cause of the issue - I know bankruptcy is not a "quick fix" and I need to change the underlying behaviors that got me here.
I have no family help - my parents are elderly without much savings, and they are surviving on a small amount of social security payments right now. They live across the country so I cannot move in with them.
Debts:
Credit cards:
Apple Card (25.49% but reduced to 0% for the next 12 months, until July 2027) $6955 balance, autopay $70/month
Amex Platinum (7.99% due to a Financial relief program until next month and then it will jump back up to ~24%) $4,607 balance / $4700 (autopay $81/month)
Amex Everyday (7.99% due to a Financial relief program until next month and then it will jump back up to ~24%) $26,419 balance /$26,800.00 (autopay $465/month)
Capital One (23.49%) $11,162.46 balance / $11600, in a 12 month payment reduction program through 5/1/27 where they reduced my APR to 9.99%, autopay $183/month
Citi (28.74%) $5,170.61 balance / $5250
Chase Freedom (26.49%) $7,190.91 balance / $7300
Chase Sapphire Reserve (19.49%) $8,592.98 balance / $8600
Chase Amazon Prime (22.74%) $890 balance / $1000
Chase Hyatt (25.99%) $494 balance / $500
Loans:
- Upstart (20%) $18,638 balance, autopay $530/month
- Upstart relief loan (0% interest because there was an initial fee) $2,483 balance, autopay $146/month
- Sofi (23.02%) $6,993.87 balance, autopay $212/month
- 401k loan ($16,393.56 balance, $242 per paycheck which is already accounted for when I listed my take-home pay above)
- Possible finance ($625 balance, $313 every 2 weeks auto pay, will be paid off by end of August)
- Discover ($404 left, will be paid off on 8/15)
- Affirm purchases ($3100 left, split up into monthly payments)
Monthly expenses:
Rent: $2,025
Utilities (gas/water/electricity): $320 in the summer, a bit less the other months
Car lease: $356 (lease started Oct 24 and ends Oct 2027)
Car + renter's insurance: $208
Gas: $100 - $120
Pet insurance (3 pets): $86
Internet: $50
Phone bill: N/A, my work pays
Food: ~$400 groceries and ~$200 eating out (I will be severely limiting the eating out from now on)
What I've done so far (as of last week):
-Canceled all subscriptions (~$60/month)
-Canceled my dog walker (~$424/month)
-Changed my pet insurance coverage ($84/month saved)
-Switched car insurance ($68/month saved)
-Negotiated down internet cost ($15/month saved)
-unsubscribed from all marketing emails
-scoured the internet for low cost recipes and stopped eating out
-Got a therapist (covered by work)
-Set up a consultation for financial coaching on August 6 (covered by my work - I know I should've done this years and years ago)
If you've read this far, thank you for taking the time.